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ryba

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Apr 13, 2024
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tonight's the night. everything is in place, so now i'm just killing time until the bus arrives. and what better way to do that than to listen to some music and smoke some cigarettes?

i've been in some rough patches before, but this time is strange. before, i've been desperate like i'm being swept away by some powerful current that bashes me against every rock in the way, but i always held out hope that someone would reach out and pull me from the rapids. there's something eerily peaceful about the end being so near and so inescapable.

last night was one of the best i've had in a long time. i never thought i'd die happy, but tonight might be the only chance.

anyway, if anyone wants to pop in and chat for a while, please feel free. suicide doesn't have to be so gloomy.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
2,091
I'm not really into cigarettes anymore because they don't really do anything for me like they used to but I will drink a beer for you.
 
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FF777

FF777

I am male..
Jul 21, 2019
189
i don't do cigarettes either, but i can drink some tasty mocha with you..

i found out a few days ago that i am WAY too terrified to CTB yet, so i'm envious of other people that are able to be calm and go through with it.. although don't feel like you can't change your mind just because you are posting on here or any thing..

are you listening to some good music?.. one of my classic favs is always the pink floyd comfortably numb song..

any way i send you love and good vibes where ever you are and which ever way your fate takes you..
feel free to say any thing else that is on your mind here if you want.. it's your thread..
 
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KiraNosferatu

KiraNosferatu

His soon-to-be Guardian Angel
Jul 24, 2026
73
i don't have any cigarettes right now, but I'll eat some ice cream for you i guess!! it's vanilla
and if you want a song recommendation, i say listen to cemetery gates by pantera.
tonight's the night. everything is in place, so now i'm just killing time until the bus arrives. and what better way to do that than to listen to some music and smoke some cigarettes?

i've been in some rough patches before, but this time is strange. before, i've been desperate like i'm being swept away by some powerful current that bashes me against every rock in the way, but i always held out hope that someone would reach out and pull me from the rapids. there's something eerily peaceful about the end being so near and so inescapable.

last night was one of the best i've had in a long time. i never thought i'd die happy, but tonight might be the only chance.

anyway, if anyone wants to pop in and chat for a while, please feel free. suicide doesn't have to be so gloomy.
 
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JustADeerGirl

JustADeerGirl

God doesn't forgive, but I do ♥
Feb 6, 2023
148
Will smoke one for you boss :heart:
 
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Higurashi415

Higurashi415

i'll f*ck me in my own way
Aug 23, 2024
351
I'll smoke one with you pal, sending hugs
 
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ryba

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Apr 13, 2024
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i don't do cigarettes either, but i can drink some tasty mocha with you..

i found out a few days ago that i am WAY too terrified to CTB yet, so i'm envious of other people that are able to be calm and go through with it.. although don't feel like you can't change your mind just because you are posting on here or any thing..

are you listening to some good music?.. one of my classic favs is always the pink floyd comfortably numb song..

any way i send you love and good vibes where ever you are and which ever way your fate takes you..
feel free to say any thing else that is on your mind here if you want.. it's your thread..
rocking out to some sublime atm, loved them growing up.

Will smoke one for you boss :heart:
preesh big dog
Pretty good to go happy boss.
too fuckin right, not many people can say that
 
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LanaSaveMe5#

LanaSaveMe5#

New Member
Jul 25, 2026
3
Don't have any rn, but I'll take a shot and listen to black beauty by lana. I'm glad youve found this opportunity to ctb, something a lot of people might never get to do on their own terms!
 
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ryba

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Apr 13, 2024
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getting closer to the lucky, thanks to everyone who stopped in
 
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interna

interna

Gone Tomorrow, Here Today
Dec 1, 2025
275
safe travels friend !
really nice, comforting, bittersweet thread. it'll stick with me
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

waiting on the other side for my belovedđź’ś
Jul 19, 2026
238
I hope you find peace đź’ś
 
bluupup

bluupup

cronus
Jun 7, 2026
90
tonight's the night. everything is in place, so now i'm just killing time until the bus arrives. and what better way to do that than to listen to some music and smoke some cigarettes?

i've been in some rough patches before, but this time is strange. before, i've been desperate like i'm being swept away by some powerful current that bashes me against every rock in the way, but i always held out hope that someone would reach out and pull me from the rapids. there's something eerily peaceful about the end being so near and so inescapable.

last night was one of the best i've had in a long time. i never thought i'd die happy, but tonight might be the only chance.

anyway, if anyone wants to pop in and chat for a while, please feel free. suicide doesn't have to be so gloomy.
I love cigarettes but I'm out rn, so I'll hit my super burnt vape for you haha. hope you can find your peace in the afterlife, man!
 

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