Shut In

[Mx_Pathetic]

I've been living the same year since I was 18 and I still have no job, barely leave my house unless I get invited by a friend. I hate that I'm like this…but my anxiety eats at me. I don't even help my family with house chores. I haven't moved out and rely on my parents more times. I'm currently trying TMS and I hope it helps…because I'm seriously losing all hope on getting better. I was always told to "hold on, it'll get better" but I hasn't..I was 8-9 when it all started and yet..I haven't gotten better. Maybe I'm just cursed. I've currently started getting closer with an online friend I've know for 3 years…but it's like he won't let me get to close. Anytime I try mention my issues he either ignores it or tried to change the subject eventually. I feel if I opened up anyways, if I told him about all my mental issues..told him I was jobless and lived with my family. He'd definitely ditch me. I wouldn't blame him honesty. He's 18, he has a job and has fun with his irl friends…something I feel I'll never truly have. I'm a shut in, struggle with mental illness on a whole other level and live with my parents, don't have my licence, how pathetic, right? For 4 years…it's been the same…I'm a lost cause…I just want to die. I want my younger 8 year old self to finally get what she wanted…

 

[Vlad Tepes]

Same, man, same. Im a high school dropout and have been a hikikomori NEET for the past 2 years (Im 18). Im severely autistic, have literally no friends, and only ever go outside to go on my nightwalks. I definitely relate to feeling ashamed of being such a pathetic fuckup.

 

[UaScorpioVetal224]

where are you from?

 

[Mx_Pathetic]

where are you from?

Australia

Same, man, same. Im a high school dropout and have been a hikikomori NEET for the past 2 years (Im 18). Im severely autistic, have literally no friends, and only ever go outside to go on my nightwalks. I definitely relate to feeling ashamed of being such a pathetic fuckup.

The term hikikomori NEET kind of implies to me. I live off my parents…I guess I'm lucky for them, but I honestly just feel like a constant burden

 

[Pluto]

I didn't get away from my parents until I was 29. Even so, I've ended up quite shut-in anyway, just in my own place now.

 

[Mx_Pathetic]

I didn't get away from my parents until I was 29. Even so, I've ended up quite shut-in anyway, just in my own place now.

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I really don't want to be like this for my whole life..just another reason I'd like to end it. Not the only reason ofc but one of them..