This used to make me cry...
Looking back on my life, at my youth. Being left out of everything. Being excluded. I used to ponder why no one liked me. What did I do? I felt like I missed out on a lot of special moments. I felt like I wasn't normal, because I never had a high school gf. I never went to dances. I never went to prom. No girl wanted me. Like I was inferior. That used to make me cry an awful lot.
Now that I'm going to ctb, not anymore at all. I feel relieved.