sh is scary

[iikusuri]

since i started cutting, it feels like i cant stop. i cant even go a day without wanting to cut, and i cant tell if its because of the feeling or if im just forcing myself to think i like it. whenever i look at my faded scars from a year ago i get mixed feelings of wanting to relapse and just cut right then and there, and also feeling disgusted and scared of myself. i want to stop but it feels like i've already gone too deep in.

 

[Timothy7dff]

Have you sought help?

 

[mehdone]

Self harm is.. well, I mean it's a coping mechanism, and it's a big part of why I'm still alive, but it certainly is addictive. There were years of my life where I cut every day.

I still use that coping mechanism from time to time, but I try not to fall back into it and only use it when absolutely necessary- I do far too much harm these days.

Anyway, just wanted to say I understand the struggle.

 

[iikusuri]

Have you sought help?

cant even seek for help, all they do is admit you to a hospital.

 

[Ash]

Yeah. That's why I always warn people on here (and IRL) who talk about wanting to start SH. There's a lot of us on here who understand exactly where you're coming from.