Method Self-stabbing and my experience.

[broth0100]

Hi, actually it wasn't physically difficult. I think because I had rehearsed the act in my mind so many times and was ready, I was able to do it quickly and without thinking. Actually, the knife I used was an antique and super dull, and because it was a valuable antique I couldn't sharpen it or I'd ruin the pattern of the tempering, so I had to rely on the point and brute force rather than the cutting edge. It seems the blade also went naturally between my ribs as it was angled horizontally instead of vertically, so there was no bone resistance. All in all, the stabbing act was done swiftly.

Gotcha ok thank u. n i wish u luck with watever you decide to do in life/with your life moving forward <3

 

[kagebunshin]

PS: the meditation thing is quite interesting, also surprised blood pressure could drop so low and be survivable (even with treatment)

When I was brought into A&E they had a lot of trouble finding veins for blood transfusion and sedation because my blood pressure was so low. They ended up putting the IVs in my feet :/

 

[bankai]

When I was brought into A&E they had a lot of trouble finding veins for blood transfusion and sedation because my blood pressure was so low. They ended up putting the IVs in my feet :/

I go for blood donation once every three months and I have the same problem with my left arm. For some reason they cannot find the vein on my left arm. But they can find it on my right arm.

 

[kagebunshin]

I go for blood donation once every three months and I have the same problem with my left arm. For some reason they cannot find the vein on my left arm. But they can find it on my right arm.

It's very admirable that you donate blood regularly! My veins are pretty fine normally, or so I believe. I had to get an IV put in every week for three months Nov-Jan when I was getting ketamine infusions and never had any issues.

 

[hammerhead239]

In the three months I prepared for my attempt, I was unemployed and unoccupied, so I didn't do much else. I used to sit by my window for hours and watch the busy street and supermarket downstairs, and take comfort in the fact that nothing about these scenes of daily life changed whether I participated in them or not. It literally made no difference whether I was alive or dead. Most importantly, I took the time to slowly go through each tie holding me to this world and reason it to break, until finally there was nothing holding me down. Then, I was free of all fear.

This is one of the things that has given me immense peace.

Actually, the knife I used was an antique and super dull, and because it was a valuable antique I couldn't sharpen it or I'd ruin the pattern of the tempering

This made me laugh out loud, thank you