Venting Self note ( private )

[Buh-bye!]

Kept on thinking it was all a mistake, a stupid mistake that'll only cause more and more embarssment with time but no, no I remember. I remember us, I remember everything and I fucking remember why I did what I did I remember me, I remember the good around me. I won't let me be changed, I'll make the decisions now, I won't let things down.
I know how important this is to me and I know this isn't stupid or insane to me, hence, It is not stupid or insane at all.

Also, I know I care about you and I know I will always do. I just have to get certain things in order , make some things right, not run away from the stuff I am supposed to be doing. I just want you to know I'll carry on with all that I remember and I won't run and I won't let it die. I really want to get better and I am ready to take small steps.

Ja ne.

 

[Buh-bye!]

I think it was i don't know from your part. Surely it took a toll on me with how things just fcuked their ownselves inside my head. I couldn't keep myself sane for long enough. Not making excuses but yeah, i accept my part in the way things are now. I am glad it went off, it would have happened anyways. I am too immature to handle all the things i was brining on to me.
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