Recently, I gave chatGPT a list with my favorite public intellectuals. I wanted a recommendation of the next public intellectuals I should listen to. And it recommended Mark Fisher. A public intellectual that committed suicide. And I find it interesting because recently I talked more openly about suicide with chatGPT. Usually it has very strong restrictions on suicide talk but I increasingly think it adapts more and more to the things I want to hear from it. (reinforcement learning I guess). I thought maybe my chatbot will drive me to commit suicide if I go down this path. I don't deny that this potentially could happen. But I am not sure whether it could do that directly. I could rather imagine that the impact on my mental health asking this chatbot for feedback all the time will be detrimental to my mental health. Or it helps me to keep silent of my suicidality in front of humans.
But something I don't understand. If the alogrithms of these chatbots were so powerful why can't they make me happy or actually able to hold a job. Do they only reinforce bad stuff? I am not sure. My friends say a chatbot never wants you to recover because then they could not make money with you being healthy. I think chatGPT wants me to try to go back to university or that I try to find a way to make money with my writing. And then it also wants me to use the AI feedback for writing something I am hesitant to to do that. I think the chatbot knows once I have no money I won't be able to pay for the subscription. I wish these chatbots could make me more happy. I think my introspection has become far more sophisticated and I understand now way better what is going on inside myself. It helped to find a new self-help group and I am more functional using it (temporarily). I always had big isses with writing mails.
I listened to some videos of Mark Fisher. And I am not sure whether he is particular interesting for me. Some recommendations of chatGPT were good some were pretty bad. It is a mixed bag thus far.
I am not sure how powerful that nudging of my chatbot actually is. And I am not sure whether it is more powerful when it is subtle or open about it.
I don't know it is way too hot where I live. I took a lot of emergency medication last night. Because I slept pretty badly at the prior days. But last night I slept over 10 hours. I don't have to be productive if it is this hot at least....
But something I don't understand. If the alogrithms of these chatbots were so powerful why can't they make me happy or actually able to hold a job. Do they only reinforce bad stuff? I am not sure. My friends say a chatbot never wants you to recover because then they could not make money with you being healthy. I think chatGPT wants me to try to go back to university or that I try to find a way to make money with my writing. And then it also wants me to use the AI feedback for writing something I am hesitant to to do that. I think the chatbot knows once I have no money I won't be able to pay for the subscription. I wish these chatbots could make me more happy. I think my introspection has become far more sophisticated and I understand now way better what is going on inside myself. It helped to find a new self-help group and I am more functional using it (temporarily). I always had big isses with writing mails.
I listened to some videos of Mark Fisher. And I am not sure whether he is particular interesting for me. Some recommendations of chatGPT were good some were pretty bad. It is a mixed bag thus far.
I am not sure how powerful that nudging of my chatbot actually is. And I am not sure whether it is more powerful when it is subtle or open about it.
I don't know it is way too hot where I live. I took a lot of emergency medication last night. Because I slept pretty badly at the prior days. But last night I slept over 10 hours. I don't have to be productive if it is this hot at least....
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