Mutilateme
Member
- Oct 31, 2023
- 14
I decided to hurt myself today. The cut wasn't especially bad. It wasn't the worst I've ever done. But seeing the wound open more and more I began to have this feeling of anxiety wash over me. Next thing I knew I was hitting my head on things and unable to stand. I wasn't hearing correctly and I began to feel very nauseous. I laid on my bathroom floor and listened to the water (my shower was on) until I was able to get back up.
I've never had an experience like that before. I've had panic attacks. My first one made me unable to, move, speak, see, and hear. I remember feeling as if I had to throw up. But this was like something else. I've gotten that anxiety before from cutting myself, but today it really went all out.
It's beginning to make me question if what I thought was anxiety before was really that bad or even anxiety at all. Kinda is making me feel as if I was playing it all for attention and I didn't even notice. Strangely humbling experience.
What do you guys think? I know it's definitely hard to get a definite answer because well, you guys aren't me. But I'd still like to try. I'm always trying to improve myself and if I've just been overreacting this entire time then I think I gotta make some changes.
I've never had an experience like that before. I've had panic attacks. My first one made me unable to, move, speak, see, and hear. I remember feeling as if I had to throw up. But this was like something else. I've gotten that anxiety before from cutting myself, but today it really went all out.
It's beginning to make me question if what I thought was anxiety before was really that bad or even anxiety at all. Kinda is making me feel as if I was playing it all for attention and I didn't even notice. Strangely humbling experience.
What do you guys think? I know it's definitely hard to get a definite answer because well, you guys aren't me. But I'd still like to try. I'm always trying to improve myself and if I've just been overreacting this entire time then I think I gotta make some changes.