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Mothz

Mothz

she/her
Oct 26, 2025
36
My main gripe with attempting to CTB is the fact I would be alone throughout it. I wish I could CTB with someone, and exit this plane of existence together with someone I love, either romantically or platonically. I get this feeling very strongly the more I read into going ahead with my plans to CTB and I am wondering if this is a normal / regular thought, does anyone else think of similar things like this when thinking about your CTB?
 
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Greasyhair

Member
Oct 18, 2025
72
I think largely majority of us suffer from sort of isolation and desire companionship. I also find that there are some things that are easier discussed with stranger than even with fully empathetic friends. While I would never want my friends to witness me CTB, but having someone else there who is going through something similar would soothe me to great extend.
 
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theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,416
My main gripe with attempting to CTB is the fact I would be alone throughout it. I wish I could CTB with someone, and exit this plane of existence together with someone I love, either romantically or platonically. I get this feeling very strongly the more I read into going ahead with my plans to CTB and I am wondering if this is a normal / regular thought, does anyone else think of similar things like this when thinking about your CTB?
Yea me 2
 
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Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
981
I always wanted to CTB all alone, but a small part of me wants to CTB with a woman. Her age is not important as long as she's caring, kind and compassionate person. She doesn't even need to CTB with me. I just want her to be with me in my final moments while the SN is slowly taking my life away and I fade out like a candle.
 
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eternalpace

Student
Oct 18, 2025
197
I would rather do it alone than take a risk that a person I meet online is a cop… or someone other than who they claim to be.
 
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Mothz

she/her
Oct 26, 2025
36
I would rather do it alone than take a risk that a person I meet online is a cop… or someone other than who they claim to be.
Obviously it'd be the right move to exert caution, but I'm not sure how many people on this form are cops. I don't think this would be their number 1 priority. I understand though
 
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