Discussion Say you were to live, what would you be doing it for?

[GabagoolProsciutto]

Also, why?

 

[tomame]

ONLY not to go to hell that's my absolute only reason

 

[DeathWish.]

I dont know i dont think im good at anything

 

[WallTermite]

I'm so cooked I can't think a reason to live for

 

[GabagoolProsciutto]

ONLY not to go to hell that's my absolute only reason

Would something powerful enough to make any kind of hell really not find it easier to just make it so that you aren't interested in killing yourself?

 

[tomame]

Would something powerful enough to make any kind of hell really not find it easier to just make it so that you aren't interested in killing yourself?

without going too much into detail— i've had experiences that have shown me Hell would make me wish i had back the dread i feel through life now. which is why i haven't attempted it a fourth time. but, at the same time .. those experiences weren't factual enough to make me not try again if things got too bad again. a part of me thinks at worst i'll only go to a purgatory type place for a while, then heaven .. not Hell.

 

[GabagoolProsciutto]

without going too much into detail— i've had experiences that have shown me Hell would make me wish i had back the dread i feel through life now. which is why i haven't attempted it a fourth time. but, at the same time .. those experiences weren't factual enough to make me not try again if things got too bad again. a part of me thinks at worst i'll only go to a purgatory type place for a while, then heaven .. not Hell.

The idea of any kind of punitive place after death doesn't really work because punishment in itself is a corrective device. Someone punishes another person because they want to demotivate certain behaviors. If you have the power to directly prevent the unappealing behaviors that exist to you, then you don't have any cause to punish someone for demonstrating those behaviors.

 

[napoleonic1800]

The idea of any kind of punitive place after death doesn't really work because punishment in itself is a corrective device. Someone punishes another person because they want to demotivate certain behaviors. If you have the power to directly prevent the unappealing behaviors that exist to you, then you don't have any cause to punish someone for demonstrating those behavior

My fear is that when we ctb, we actually dont end shit our conscience still lingers and suffers the same pain we all do, that would be hell at least for me, suffering that death wont end it

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

since i got into theatre and performing drag, i have thought sometimes about staying alive for that. right now i dont think i want to stay alive. but if i ever did, it would be for that. it makes me feel free. becoming someone else by acting is like escaping my life without dying. once i get offstage i am myself again and it all comes back. now it is so bad that i am struggling to do the preperation i need to do for theatre roles, and i fear i will lose my ability to even do theatre. but if i were to live for something, it would be that. its only temporary relief but its so nice.

 

[MeSauce]

Because things might improve.

 

[delinquentsandwich]

if I absolutely had no choice but to live for something?

maybe piano honestly
I'd be fine with dedicating my entire life to it

 

[FuneralCry]

I only suffer in this terrible, torturous existence as I was forced to in the first place, there could never be a point to any of this rather to suffer in this existence will just always be the most terrible, cruel mistake that only ever causes all this harm and suffering torturing existing beings all for the sake of it, I'll just always see existence as the problem.

It's just so terrible how this existence was imposed causing all this cruelty and suffering as a result, all I want is to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all, nothing would make me wish for the abomination of existence rather I just hope to never suffer ever again. I'll always see existence as the problem, only non-existence could ever be positive for me, only in non-existence will I finally be at peace from this existence so torturous and futile.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I would be trying to achieve more in my creative career. That has been my major coping mechanism and purpose in life for decades but, for the past few years, it's been losing its appeal. I don't even know that I want that drive back. More than that, I just want to be able to rest.

Plus, I feel like I have a more realistic view of the industry now. Artists at the top of the profession aren't necessarily treated well or respected. 5 out of 5 people I've chatted to described how exploited they were. I don't see that as something I even want to experience.

I always used to think life with a romantic partner would feel worthwhile but- I also see the negatives of that too. Even the better relationships I've witnessed have been full of bickering and insecurities and compromise- or worse. I think I had a very fairytale vision of love.

I suppose that's part of the problem really. Even if I could achieve my best life- I'm not convinced it would feel like my best life. I'm not at all convinced it would be worth the effort either.

For a while now, I've been enjoying more comfort in the letting go of things. Less career aspirations, no more longing for a romantic partner. It's been more freeing to let go of those desires/ dreams.

 

[memento-mori]

because continuing to live doesn't require any active effort unlike killing myself

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I can't see myself living for any reason besides love. I feel like I cant live without having someone to obsess over. If I am to not kill myself love would be the sole reason.

 

[Dissolving Figment]

I've yet to find something that really makes me want to live life.
Projects, hobbies, friends bring me joy but that joy feels shallow and temporary. I have no desire to seek it out.

The years I've been in relationships have been good. Very little suicidal ideation during those years, as compared to multiple times per week consistently in the years without.
But I'm at a point in my life where seeking out a relationship again would require self-improvement, and I don't care enough to do so.

 

[paranoias64]

if i were to live. it would be for my family. it would be for my friends. the unhoused that still need help. the trans woman in my state that was wrongly arrested. it would be to help ppl. to help some strangers on here. the ppl ppl forget about, that who i would live for. the last thing it would ever be for is myself.

 

[lastappleonearth]

Love

 

[3rdworldsadness]

No reasons, I just want to be free from every rules, system and on going hardships of life forever. Nothing seems worthy to live for.

 

[starboy2k]

No reasons, I just want to be free from every rules, system and on going hardships of life forever. Nothing seems worthy to live for.

because continuing to live doesn't require any active effort unlike killing myself

hard agree with both of these responses…….

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

to me there is no reason to live even if there were no pain and suffering and so many problems and evil.

but the fact that there is pain so bad it's a billion times worse than the worst thing one can imagine ... i would never want to live in this hell ever

the only reason i'm still alive is because i don't have a 99.9% + suicide method and plan ready to go . i fear failing and remaining alive but with more damage including more brain damage.

nothing matters except avoiding long lasting continuous constant unbearable pain.

all the things they say are so good, important , enjoyable are extremely fleeting and meaningless . none of this matters. will any of those matter in 130 years, 1000 years? 1 trillion years ?no no and no.

every human alive now will be dead in 130 years and completely obliterated from existence for all time which also shows why none of that bait for the worst torture matters.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

if I absolutely had no choice but to live for something?

maybe piano honestly
I'd be fine with dedicating my entire life to it

But there is no way to do that? (For most people the answer would be no, I realize that, just asking).

 

[delinquentsandwich]

But there is no way to do that? (For most people the answer would be no, I realize that, just asking).

nah my chronic illness is enough to stop me haha

if it weren't for it, I would consider it