Say ANYTHING!

[NSA]

Found this on reddit, yet again another reason to never call a suicide hotline. It's awful how the poster was called selfish, forced to call back to the suicide line, apologize to them, and then speak with them every day for two months. And as you can see, suicide hotlines don't help people who are just generally suicidal instead of spontaneously suicidal. So if your boy/girlfriend breaks up with you and you feel suicidal and depressed for the first time in life, then they can be helpful, but if your lifestory is "My life has always been shitty, and I haven't wanted to live for years" then there's little they can do. Also, this is yet another reason why I hate the police and doctors.
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I've come close to calling one of those lines once or twice, just to say I tried it. It seems my natural paranoia has saved me once again. And the normies wonder why we never "just open up" to them, smh.

 

[Manaaja]

I've come close to calling one of those lines once or twice, just to say I tried it. It seems my natural paranoia has saved me once again. And the normies wonder why we never "just open up" to them, smh.

I called one once. The person just listened to me for about 45 minutes sounding really bored and disinterested, then she finally started complaining that I had already talked for 45 minutes, asked me if I have a psychologist appointment coming, and then told me to wait till then and speak to the psychologist.

I was having a really bad day, felt really suicidal and depressed, and I'd have wanted to talk a lot more, so being told that I had already talked too much felt really shitty. I cried in a parking lot thinking what to do. I felt absolutely shitty and suicidal and wanted to speak with someone, but the suicide hotline had just told me that I had said enough and ended the call.

They didn't call me again or send anyone to check on me. Actually it was quite the opposite of what happened to that poster in that reddit thread. I felt too ignored, discarded and uncared for, while the poster obviously had the exact opposite with the police showing up and the hotline making forcing them to call every day for two months. Why must they be polar extremes? Why can't there be a suicide line that functions by them calling once a day for a week without any polices?

It's true that it's really difficult to open up. In my experience about 1/3 of people just completely ignore what you say as if they didn't hear you, 1/3 call you crazy and tell you to see a psychiatrist/go to thought jail/eat more pills and also say the classic "I'm not a psychiatrist, it's not my job to help me, go see a professional" (it's especially shitty when it's your own relatives who say that), and 1/3 have basically let me feel like they don't want to help me and they don't give a shit if I ctb. Having someone react the way you want is really rare. Very rarely are people sympathetic/empathic or ask you what you want or how you want to be treated.

 

[StarryStarry]

I want to thank every single person on this site who has helped me overcome and showed me what real friendship means. You all know who you are (I hope). I couldn't make it without your support. thank you!! You are very special people and I am so lucky to have you in my life.

 

[Manaaja]

I got new dishwasher tablets and they smell like Digimon World 3! I had a neighbor with whom I used to play that game at their house. I never knew that smell in their house came from the dish washer tablets! It's been so long, it's amazing how I can still instantly recognize that smell after not smelling it for about 15 years and connect it to the game.

...Not that it's been 15 years mind you... I remember when I was at school and thought it would never end, now I can hardly remember being there. I feel like I get an existential panic attack from this. Like my mind can't comprehend that I'm no longer a child or teen at school.

It reminds me of the saying I heard about 15 years ago. Or was it even 20? "Live as long as you may, the first 20 years are the longest half of your life".

It would be much nicer if instead of:

1-5 years: Baby
5-13 years: child
13-17 years: teen
18-25 years: young adult
25-59: adult
60+: elderly

It was a cycle like the seasons. Like when you turn 30 you become a baby again, then you remain a child for some years, and then become a teen again, and then young adult. I've heard there are animals that do it. What the hell are they called. Medusa? I guess that was it. That cycle through child-adult-child-adult-child. At first I thought that what it people remained children till about 20 year olds, became teens at 20 and became adults at 35, but all that would achieve would be that when I turned 35 I'd say "I don't want to be an adult, I want to be a child again". Better to just cycle through it.

I love reading fanfics where there's a couple and one of them suddenly turns into a 3 year old and they go from being spouses to being an adoptive parent and adoptive child. It's always so comical and makes me laugh and smile.

Did you know that in Japan, since it's illegal to marry, many homosexuals adopt each other? So you might have a 30 year old man "adopting" a 25 year old man and then law will treat them as if they were father and son instead of spouses. But at least that way they can get family rights, some of the same rights as married couples do. They can for example, inherit each other and visit each other at hospitals etc.

 

[StarryStarry]

I got new dishwasher tablets and they smell like Digimon World 3! I had a neighbor with whom I used to play that game at their house. I never knew that smell in their house came from the dish washer tablets! It's been so long, it's amazing how I can still instantly recognize that smell after not smelling it for about 15 years and connect it to the game.

...Not that it's been 15 years mind you... I remember when I was at school and thought it would never end, now I can hardly remember being there. I feel like I get an existential panic attack from this. Like my mind can't comprehend that I'm no longer a child or teen at school.

It reminds me of the saying I heard about 15 years ago. Or was it even 20? "Live as long as you may, the first 20 years are the longest half of your life".

It would be much nicer if instead of:

1-5 years: Baby
5-13 years: child
13-17 years: teen
18-25 years: young adult
25-59: adult
60+: elderly

It was a cycle like the seasons. Like when you turn 30 you become a baby again, then you remain a child for some years, and then become a teen again, and then young adult. I've heard there are animals that do it. What the hell are they called. Medusa? I guess that was it. That cycle through child-adult-child-adult-child. At first I thought that what it people remained children till about 20 year olds, became teens at 20 and became adults at 35, but all that would achieve would be that when I turned 35 I'd say "I don't want to be an adult, I want to be a child again". Better to just cycle through it.

I love reading fanfics where there's a couple and one of them suddenly turns into a 3 year old and they go from being spouses to being an adoptive parent and adoptive child. It's always so comical and makes me laugh and smile.

Did you know that in Japan, since it's illegal to marry, many homosexuals adopt each other? So you might have a 30 year old man "adopting" a 25 year old man and then law will treat them as if they were father and son instead of spouses. But at least that way they can get family rights, some of the same rights as married couples do. They can for example, inherit each other and visit each other at hospitals etc.

I've always thought we should live like Mork - born old and die as a baby. It makes so much more sense. You live your life with so much knowledge and die as a baby without fear. It's funny whenever I smell Brut (yes it's been eons) it reminds me of my first boyfriend (he was an asshole too).

 

[Manaaja]

I've always thought we should live like Mork - born old and die as a baby. It makes so much more sense. You live your life with so much knowledge and die as a baby without fear. It's funny whenever I smell Brut (yes it's been eons) it reminds me of my first boyfriend (he was an asshole too).

I've thought of that too! Though while I don't want to grow old, I also don't want to become a baby permanently; bodily autonomy is important for me. But it would be interesting to experience and I can see why others would like it.

I had to google what mork is and it was a spin-off of Happy days. That was a really good show. "Sunday, Monday, Happy days!". I remember it always made me feel happier.

I have to google Brut too. Now I want to taste it. But it's fascinating how long taste and smell memories can linger. I'm sorry your first was a jerk. It's especially awful if it's the first one who is jerk, since that can make you fear everyone else will be a jerk too.

 

[StarryStarry]

I've thought of that too! Though while I don't want to grow old, I also don't want to become a baby permanently; bodily autonomy is important for me. But it would be interesting to experience and I can see why others would like it.

I had to google what mork is and it was a spin-off of Happy days. That was a really good show. "Sunday, Monday, Happy days!". I remember it always made me feel happier.

I have to google Brut too. Now I want to taste it. But it's fascinating how long taste and smell memories can linger. I'm sorry your first was a jerk. It's especially awful if it's the first one who is jerk, since that can make you fear everyone else will be a jerk too.

LMAO!!! I forgot that I was older than most. Mork starred Robin Williams it was a great show. He was from another planet and he was born old and died as a baby. Brut was an after shave/cologne back in the 70s. You are too funny!!! Thanks for the laugh!!

 

[Manaaja]

LMAO!!! I forgot that I was older than most. Mork starred Robin Williams it was a great show. He was from another planet and he was born old and died as a baby. Brut was an after shave/cologne back in the 70s. You are too funny!!! Thanks for the laugh!!

I googled and it showed me alcoholic Brut drinks like Brut pommac soda and brut wines. XD But I guess in emergency even a cologne would do - though it would probably take a week to take off the smell from mouth. But on the other hand, helpful after eating some garlic salad!

 

[StarryStarry]

I googled and it showed me alcoholic Brut drinks like Brut pommac soda and brut wines. XD But I guess in emergency even a cologne would do - though it would probably take a week to take off the smell from mouth. But on the other hand, helpful after eating some garlic salad!

You're a hoot!

 

[Sherri]

Bla bla bla

 

[Kismet]

I've come close to calling one of those lines once or twice, just to say I tried it. It seems my natural paranoia has saved me once again. And the normies wonder why we never "just open up" to them, smh.

The normies is an interesting and accurate way to describe them. I've definitely thought about calling the hotline btw but for exactly this reddit persons reason is why I won't. I would sure die if i got this kind of attention for making an attempt to reach out for help

 

[waitingforrest]

AAAAA my psychiatrist is pissing me offff

 

[Simba]

Fuck

 

[Dysgenic Pup]

Polka dot ah deeble de dah do deeble de dah treble le la ooooooh

 

[OnlyTheWind]

I hate work! I should qualify for disability payments because depression and stress make me want to kill myself.

 

[Al Cappella]

A bit random, but I just want to say that I can't stand identity politics. Urgh!

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Fuck my life

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

YouTube watch history isn't updating for me at all. This made me so irrationally angry that I was almost ready to take my SN right now until I did some digging and found that it seems like a lot of people are suffering from the same issue. I suddenly felt a lot better knowing that the same thing that was giving me grief for the day was actually happening to other people too.

That got me wondering: what is this supposed to say about me? What does this say about society over all if other people feel the same way? Could this explain why so much torture and pain goes unaddressed in the world just because it makes a lot of people feel better about it just knowing that it happens to other people too? Is this why so many anti-choice people want to go through any means necessary to force other people to stay alive? If this is true, then does it mean nothing will ever fully change for the better since complacency is far more appealing and rage inducing situations can be placated by making them happen to other people too? I guess misery really does love company.

 

[Cathy Ames]

There are birds in the attic disturbing me. This sounds like a fun metaphor describing my mental health situation, but it is an unfortunate reality that will need to be dealt with at some point, either sooner or later. But it makes me laugh (sort of) that my reality sounds like a metaphor when I say it out loud.

 

[Tristan]

Fed up of wars and all that comes with it. I thought this was 2022!!! Why humans wanna find another planet? So they can destroy and burn it into wars . The hell with it. If that planet exist please hide from us! It's already unbearable to live on this one.

 

[symphony]

ANYTHING!

 

[NSA]

Til I don't hate watercolor, I just hate trying to use shitty synthetic brushes with it. Kolinsky forever.

 

[Of The Universe]

Lucy!! You got a lot uh splainin' to do!!

 

[Kevin_Logan]

Hi

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I just want nothing bad to me to ever happen to me ever again. Is that so much to ask? Of course it is, that's why I deserve to die.

 

[Circles]

Fuck home improvement groups. They act like anybody can fix anything but nope just fucking no.

 

[FailureGirl]

Sometimes I think of posting on Facebook but I'm terrified of being judged or just being left feeling even more alone so I don't even try. It makes me wana just disappear.

 

[Manaaja]

Why is it that, if I wake up early, time goes really fast, but if I wake up really late, every minute feels like an hour?

Every single time:

Me: Wow, I woke up early, it's only 11am! Now I have time to do all kinds of things!
A second later: Geez! It's already 10pm and I haven't done a single thing today and now it's too late to do anything!

Me: Shit, why did I woke up so late?! It's already 7pm! I don't have time to do anything!
Me an hour later: What? I managed to go shopping and make food and have a walk and visit someone and it's only 8pm?

 

[BrokenHill]

Following destructive lifestyle and others judge me for that, YOU ARE REASON THAT I WANT CTB, now i feel comfortable

 

[littlelungs]

I fucking hate being alive but I'm thankful that Oreos exist.