Venting s00ts vent thread.

[smirks00ts]

Just exactly what it sounds. dont mind it much.

my head and heart still hurt from yesterday. im back relapsing to my yearning again and i hate it. I eish I never lived in a country where its impossible to lill yourself properly. I want someone to murder me at this point. whatever it is. as long as I disappear from everyones minds.

 

[hdead]

Just exactly what it sounds. dont mind it much.

my head and heart still hurt from yesterday. im back relapsing to my yearning again and i hate it. I eish I never lived in a country where its impossible to lill yourself properly. I want someone to murder me at this point. whatever it is. as long as I disappear from everyones minds.

Where are you at, if you don't mind me asking?

 

[smirks00ts]

Where are you at, if you don't mind me asking?

KSA. not in the capitals tho. i live in a very small town where not much happens.

 

[hdead]

KSA. not in the capitals tho. i live in a very small town where not much happens.

Sorry, I have no idea what KSA is...

 

[smirks00ts]

Sorry, I have no idea what KSA is...

thats fair, sorry! it stands for Kingdom of Saudi Arabia

 

[smirks00ts]

today was fine.

hung out with friend playing a game. not much else. aside from yt and dinner. however I'm still hurt.

I dont think ill ever let go. I wish I wouldnt let my mistakes defined me.but I fear beinf likenthisnforeve.rj it's 12am. I just want to feel again.
I cant sleep

I haven't been.abke to properly for.a while now

I wish I was gone.

 

[smirks00ts]

it is 3:11pm. im out w family in the car. I am thinking of obtaining a gun somehow. my license training is tommorow which I hope I succeed in because itll open lots of possibility for me. I want to drive to a nearby empty place and shoot myself there. I hope it goes well somewhat. im still thinking.