themisfell
Member
- May 31, 2023
- 83
I just dont know what to do anymore. I feel so consumed by everything bad and awful. I'm stuck in a relationship that I dont hate and wish was better, but never does get better despite me pleading with them. I met someone recently who I thought I was capable of getting close to but they're such a distant and uninterested person that it makes me feels so miserable, even if they tell me that they care about me. I don't feel any joy in my career as my degree was an incrediblely specific one and I happened to just graduate as the job market for that degree essentially collapsed in on itself. and i just feel so lonely. I dont enjoy time with my boyfriend. my friends rarely hang out with me. my family and I are completely cut off due to them trying to do awful things to me. I don't want any of this, I want to be better. I want to be better so bad. I dont fucking know what to do nothing is getting better. And I feel so sick and overwhelmed. I feel miserable.
