Recovery Partners Megathread

[glittergore]

23F.

I will be fully transparent and say I'm not wholly committed to the idea of recovery, but I do have things in this world and in myself that still make life worth living for me, so I want to see if I can cope with and overcome the things that make me want to die. I'm going to be entering a very stressful time in my life very soon (the field experience portion of my graduate degree) and would love to have some additional support during a period in which I know I'll be suicidal. All that being said, I am also an empathetic, responsive, and thoughtful person that could help someone else as well. I'm basically seeking mutuality. PM if you're interested. :)

 

[Nyxx33]

33F

I am looking for some people to talk to that I can also help in return by listening and advising if needed. This place feels safer for me than talking to people in person at this point. It can be just for lighthearted conversation too and sharing things that have helped us move forward or brought us joy and purpose. I am struggling a lot with moving forward and letting go of my past.. but the opportunity to have positive interactions with others I think can help ground me, and I hope to do the same for others as well and break the cycle of feeling stuck in unserving patterns.

 

[Privatehell]

Branching out on a whim, not my usual MO. But it's cool to have someone friendly with you who gets depression and anxiety. Love a bitter sense of humour. I'm 33 female, music lover and generally cool person if it's a consideration!

 

[ItsAllTooLate]

22 going on 23 year old female here from the USA. Looking for someone to talk to that is serious about moving past suicidality. Discord is preferred for communication, especially because I'm considering leaving the site even though I haven't been here all that long. Hoping to generally have a recovery partner where we keep each other accountable regarding our urges and actively work on getting better.

 

[JoeFailure]

35/m

I have ADHD and basically developed an anxiety disorder over the last year. Working hard to change my life, I was truly on the brink of CTB last year and probably many times in between then and now. I have a plan for a career change that might work but I have high anxiety about the process and get panic attacks. I kind of have my "toolbox" (not to sound therapisty about it) that I go to that at least somewhat alleviates the anxiety.

I guess the hard part for me is it's every part of life that I'm trying to change. Eating healthier, I'm OK on the weight front but am working at getting in really good shape, learning to be organized, developing more life skills.

It would be awesome to have someone to talk to, especially live on a safe app with no video or anything like that, but someone who could be there when things are rough and someone who I could be there for too in the same situation and help each other out. I find that gives more meaning to everything too.

 

[Giraffey]

I'm a 26-year-old male from England; with the accent to prove it; fighting his way through recovery to avoid CTB. I've suffered a few setbacks recently, but I'm feeling stronger than before and I now feel as though I've got enough strength to share with someone else who is also on their recovery journey.

What can I say about me other than that I'm an oddball? I work in the film industry and part-time as a hypnotherapist specialising in the treatment of somatoform disorders; and functional nausea and vomiting. I'm a good listener and a very unjudgemental person; my clients are often people who have been labelled as attention seekers or lost-causes - all too often those are labels given out by bombastic therapists who rigidly fail to connect and thus 'blame the patient' to spare their own ego. So I think of myself as a good problem-solver, I'm willing to listen and provide a different perspective on things to help someone on their journey to recovery.

My hobbies are equally eccentric. I'm currently studying dreams and consciousness and have a mini sleep lab set-up conducting my own research. My friends quite frequently ask me to interpret their dreams for them and I've conducted nightmare therapy before, so if you're interested in any of that you might find it hard to shut me up. I love all different kinds of music and art - I'm rubbish at drawing (as you can see from my avatar) but I still try...

It would be really nice to have someone to chat with regularly about anything suicidal or non-suicidal, someone to joke with about the funny things that happen in our day; to get excited about our progress and achievements and remind one another of our strengths when we are feeling weak. Honestly, I will talk to just about anyone who can put up with me, but if there's anyone here in the UK, that's a bonus.

So if you haven't been completely bored out of your mind reading this post then firstly, wow; you have the patience of a saint! Secondly, feel free to send me a PM and perhaps we'll be a good fit for recovery partners; you never know, it could lead to us both getting a new friend for life :)

 

[watereyes]

18t (m to f) from France

I decided to keep living till I do hrt. Until then I would love to meet someone who could travel to my country (I unfortunately can't travel) to hang out with and with who I could talk freely about my thoughts of suicide. I'm an idiot but I am kind.

 

[sadbunny]

29 F California, I go through a lot of ups and downs but recently I've been a lot more optimistic. I'm down to talk to anyone about anything

 

[LonelyNick]

32 FtM Canada

Things have been really hard during COVID/quarantine for me, gallbladder problem that have no resolution in sight, broke up with the person I thought was the love of my life and I'm all alone because my family is a bunch of transphobic assholes. My phone is dead, no one is talking to me. I need someone who understands that life can be really hard and that thiking about suicide is not the end of the world

 

[After The End]

36m Australia. Not sure about anything but it'd be nice to have someone to talk to. I can't be fucked writing about myself. You can look me up on Quora I think.

 

[timeisnigh]

30s male, eastern USA. not dedicated to CTBing because pro choice means I'm open to the faint possibilty of recovery

 

[AfraidofEverything]

32/F New England

I'm pro choice but not looking to CTB yet. I would prefer someone also working toward recovery! Either gender is ok but please no love/sex, I am NOT interested.

I was part of the original r/SS before it got taken down, I miss having others that understood things. I'm pretty lonely and isolated due to my anxiety issues and don't have contact with anyone beyond family. I'd love to make some friends or have someone care I exist, even if this is a weird place to pick for that lol

When I used to play my PC I did things like eso/wow/d3. Right now I mostly use my tablet/phone and play some mobile games or do artwork. I've been reading a little bit of manga and books, usually fantasy or artbooks. Also really love dragons

 

[ilovenightmares]

Going against the grain here but I'm curious if there's a partner to run away with, not ctb with (if all else fails can do that but I want to do it alone).

I mean drop literally everything to go somewhere else. I plan to do this anyway but two (or more) heads/income are better than one.

29/M/Uk, no stranger to travel. Just floating the idea of someone to do this with. Pm.

 

[RealHumanBean]

Well, like others here I am not sure if recovery is in my future, but I would like to lessen the suffering in the meantime. I am looking for a penpal-type of thing with someone similarly aged/life experienced. I would prefer to talk with a woman because I have an easier time talking to women (therapist is a woman, grew up with older sisters, etc..). I am 33/M/US and would like to kill some time or check in with someone on WhatsApp/Skype or whatever people use for IM. Thanks! Talk to you soon :)

 

[tryingtoescape]

Not in recovery, but I'd like some friends who understand. New York, 20.

 

[141592653]

Hi ! 24 MtF lebian women from France, hyperactive and joyful when I am drunk and lost and confused the rest of the time (which is sadly more often the case than when I'm high). I decided to not ctb because of COVID and know I don't have the strength anymore to prepare anything. However, I everywhere I go (LGBTQI+ or neuroatypic places) => I'm Asperger with high IQ which is the last thing I would recommend to have a good life. Well I've been in some groups out there, neverfelt at ease, always to extreme (too hyperactive, hospital almost every party I through etc). I am also very extreme about suicide and I don't relate with other so I hurt them and then I realise that I hurt them and I hurt me (physically).
So specific interests : math, addictions, music (metal, EDM and all popular electronic music), suicide, visual arts, computer science, trains.
Please excuse me if I'm rude I don't do this on purpose.

"Forgive me for my wrongs I have just begun"

 

[Escapist]

I am 37, Male, from Northern Europe. I am still undecided about CTB or recovery.

I would like to talk to a woman who has a similar attitude towards suicide (open for recovery, pro-choice). Just to be clear, I'm looking for a woman because I prefer to talk about deep stuff with a woman rather than with a man. No particular age preferences, younger or older than me is fine

I'm pro-choice when it comes to suicide, "your life, your pain, your choice" - is my ideology. I will respect your anonymity and your comfort zone boundaries and I hope you do the same for me. I prefer to keep things healthy, no pressure to share everything etc. For me, sharing means having both the freedom to share and the freedom to not share. Just go with what feels right, no right way or wrong way to do it, only what works for you.

I guess it's also worth mentioning that I have plenty of messy experiences with religion and spirituality so if you need somebody to listen to you while you ponder your religious thoughts, I'm very comfortable with listening to incoherent religious ramblings :) I am also interested in history, psychology, human experience generally and fantasy fiction writing.

Hit me with a message, and we shall find out if we have common interests, aside from, you know, that death wish - thing we are all here for...

 

[mouseteeth]

I'm 29 F, less than a month from turing 30. From NY, about an hour from NYC. I have no friends. I have a hard time socializing.
I am deeply into music, especially '80s new wave and punk. I would love to have friends, but I have such horrible anxiety that I don't think I could meet anyone beforehand without that being known.

 

[airboy_a380]

I'm 40, gay man from Europe, well travelled, looking for someone who's looking for company, love and that is looking towards recovery and giving life a go. I'm masculine and like the same in terms of guys. Hit me up wherever you're from. Love has no boundaries.

 

[RicRac]

If you are a french speaking girl (easier for me ) want to talk over the phone for hours, nothing more, i'm a great listener and we could share experience, don't care about age (except minors). I'm not looking for love/sex whatsoever. It would be nice to hear a human voice and knowing that somewhere there is someone who cares. Just let me know.

 

[myrtaryniel]

20F Spain
Almost recovered but still struggling. I prefer to meet in person and i don't care about gender (don't be a creep if you're a dude tho it's a huge trigger for me), only people around my age please

 

[Onomotopoeia]

I'm 29 F, less than a month from turing 30. From NY, about an hour from NYC. I have no friends. I have a hard time socializing.
I am deeply into music, especially '80s new wave and punk. I would love to have friends, but I have such horrible anxiety that I don't think I could meet anyone beforehand without that being known.

i'm 38 also from ny. About 2 hours from the city. In a similar scenario. I have OCD and anxiety making socializing difficult, and meeting people even more so. Would love to chat if your interested and see if we click. I was much more into music when i was younger, but it was often a social experience. I went to a lot of concerts (mostly no name locals with friends tbf) Message me if you want to chat.

 

[Zorya]

Hello, I am Zorya, I;m a 29-yo girl looking for TRUE friends. Horny guys looking for a "score" will be blocked immediately.

 

[puppy9]

Hello, I am Zorya, I;m a 29-yo girl looking for TRUE friends. Horny guys looking for a "score" will be blocked immediately.

Damn I love this message. To SS members who's looking for irl or online friends. Learn from this Queen here.

 

[searchingfreedom]

Hi,
I'm a 25 yr old gay woman living in the US. I figure while I'm still here reluctantly, I would love to talk to someone and form a friendship. I deal with severe depression and GAD. To be able to open up and talk freely about mental issues and suicide would be amazing. Tired of constantly wearing a mask, hiding my struggles and going through life alone.

 

[airboy_a380]

Hi,
I'm a 25 yr old gay woman living in the US. I figure while I'm still here reluctantly, I would love to talk to someone and form a friendship. I deal with severe depression and GAD. To be able to open up and talk freely about mental issues and suicide would be amazing. Tired of constantly wearing a mask, hiding my struggles and going through life alone.

Do u prefer a woman or a guy it's fine?

 

[searchingfreedom]

Do u prefer a woman or a guy it's fine?

Man or woman is fine, doesn't matter to me

 

[Onomotopoeia]

38 male in the US, NY if it matters.

I cannot say recovery is quite right for me, but it would be nice to have someone to chat with. Maybe find some things in common and offer some support without a lot of the pretense dancing around mental health has in the real world.

i've tried this before and often people never write back, hey sometimes it does not feel right. Me, I will likely respond to all adults. If we dont click so be it.

I mentioned recover is not quite right, and that's true but I know at least for me having a candid conversation with another person would likely be a really great first step so if your there also send me a message

 

[nyanko]

18/F/UK

i like anime, video games and drawing!
i am suffering from depression and severe social anxiety and i cut myself almost daily!
i have no friends and i would love to find someone to talk to everyday. i think even just a good morning or good night would be so nice!

any age/gender/location - feel free to PM! i have discord as well! ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´ω`ﾟ)ﾟ｡

 

[Amumu]

Hi
I'm 21/M
I would like to talk with somebody because I have no friends where I live now.
I love music, video games and I'd like to talk about my diseases or addictions too.
Feel free to PM - I still don't know how to pm myself