Recording my attempts/practices on this thread (partial hanging)

[jr331199]

Does anyone else hate being stuck in this limbo? I do. I feel like nothing can ever help my mental state anymore. And when I try to get help it's very secluded to the traditional options of psychiatric intervention and therapy. Which both doesn't seem to work for me. I have been on so many medications ever since I was very young, every time I feel worse they just add on medication. It frustrates me.

Sorry for the rambling, I really don't get why do people desperately try to keep suicidal people in this world. In the name of love? There's love all around me, but my life is so painful to even listen to loved ones. I gave myself so many chances, 10 years, nothing changes even though I sorry desperately cling on to what will help and what makes me feel good. Nothing feels good, all I feel is anhedonia and resentment for the psychiatric industry.

Today I tried partial hanging for the first time, seemed less intimidating. When I did it gave me a really bad headache and I chickened out. Would using a sedative like olanzapine help before doing this?

I hope you are all doing well enough, well it's hard to say that considering our circumstances. I think a lot about all of you on this forum.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best as well, I understand finding it painful to exist, it sounds like you've suffered a lot.

 

[Forveleth]

The headache is from not hitting the "sweet spot" on your neck. You were closing off your jugular veins instead of your carotid arteries. It happens a lot with partial. You just have to keep trying rope positions until you get it right.

Not sure about that particular sedative, unfortunately, but if you have experience with taking it and you know its effects than it can not hurt I would think.

 

[jr331199]

Update 2,

Practiced again. I think my "sweet spot" is by my Adam's Apple . I also found the perfect distance from the noose to the ground for partial. I felt like I was going unconscious almost immediately because my legs were giving up but I stopped just to post an update and try again later because now isn't the best time : I would be found faster. It did stimulate myself wanting to cough* though. Tips?

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

Were you practicing by actually placing your neck in the ligature? I thought applying pressing to the carotid causes you to pass out within seconds. How long did you wait before stopping yourself?

 

[jr331199]

Were you practicing by actually placing your neck in the ligature? I thought applying pressing to the carotid causes you to pass out within seconds. How long did you wait before stopping yourself?

Yes. I felt like I was about to pass out within seconds but I stopped myself by the time the 4 second mark hit, I was counting haha. I also leaned my head back just a little bit.

 

[hamudhhb]

any more updates on this ?