Hi, sorry I didn't mean to come across like the way I did and hope I didn't trigger you. I totally understand not feeling comfortable for a pact because the encouragement aspect. It's just that I sometimes can't understand how we, as a society, don't aid the one's in need/the ones dying (whether it be due to physical or mental health). By that I mean, a society should not encourage harm, but just bluntly turning its back to people suffering and contemplating such acts feels like the lowest of the lowest level of humanity.
I really don't mean to put it in a horrific way, it's just that I can't understand why they rather have us dying alone in an ice cold spot than warmly surrounded ((by loved ones))/in a decent setting. Honestly, I wouldn't even want this for myself as well and prefer acting by myself, but I do wish it for others who for instance asked for legal euthanasia, didn't get it and had to die on their own alone , in a more horrific way/more shocking way for the family members and friends (I saw a documentary about a young person who wanted his friend had been given the chance of a 'worthy' death (in certain well-designed settings by society) instead of a 'horrific' death). In sum, my remarks and thinking about the notion of 'pact' is more related to the need for 'humanity' and connectedness in those last moments. (However, I was indeed not in a great place, I tend to be more frustrated about the lack of any societal support in such situations and might than believe I understand the motivations of people who did choose for a 'pact' as way of unconditional support in a difficult act (not support for dying, but continued support when things get difficult)).
I hope this makes my former reaction a little less disturbing, sorry. Wish you the best of luck as well! Truely hope you may find ways to cope with your struggles ~
