realizing i think i'd rather ctb than work

[lnlybnny]

I want to ctb since I left high school. I thought things would be easier and that I'd so something I loved but that's not how it works. Instead I just neeted for 10 years and now I'm realizing I'm left with two options: ctb or wage slave. I'd rather ctb

 

[needthebus]

i sort of understand your perspective. i work right now and don't like it.

have you applied to jobs and tried anything out?

 

[Culprit]

I can relate. I also left high school after not passing my main exam. I spent two years at home, and now I've been working for three years. I don't like my job I feel like a slave, and I'm feeling quite exhausted by it. The only option I see for myself is CTB.

 

[lnlybnny]

i sort of understand your perspective. i work right now and don't like it.

have you applied to jobs and tried anything out?

I tried to apply and still do but tbh I don't take it that seriously. The clock is ticking fast though I need to make my decision soon

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

That's the only way we can stick it to the man IMO. Remove ourselves from this sick game. Ensure that nobody ever controls or enslaves us again.

 

[We Are Angels]

Same here. 40+ years of doing the same shit over and over, I want to blow my brains out after 8 hours and you expect me to do some mundane shit thousands and thousands of days for fucking pennies? It would be one thing if I could pick my schedule, but the fact that most jobs have a strict schedule just makes it impossible for me to keep up. Security jobs are sometimes low stress but I can't think of anything else.

Not everyone has the motivation for this crap, sorry.

 

[İnilerim]

I understand. The only period of time where I was fully employed, I felt like my life hit a metaphorical stop button. Too exhausted to do anything else except household upkeep.

 

[needthebus]

I tried to apply and still do but tbh I don't take it that seriously. The clock is ticking fast though I need to make my decision soon

it takes a lot of applications these days to get interviews. it is normal to send out 1000 job applications and possibly only get 1 or 2 interviews. It's just a numbers game and anyone can get a job if they apply enough, although it doesn't always feel that way and can take time. If you think you could possibly be happy working, you could keep applying? Suicide is a difficult and horrible path, just attempting is hard and attempts don't always work. If there's a chance you could be happy if you worked, and haven't, it's an option. Community service is a great way to gain experience while looking for a job, and a great way to meet people and just see how you feel doing something. I am not anti-suicide but if you kept applying to jobs and started doing community service and got a life coach, you could end up happy in a year or two if you don't have severe medical problems.

 

[astr4]

yeah, i get it. i don't think you're wrong, but i do think it's worth at least working for a few weeks to see how bad it is for you personally.

idk i read a lot of comments on here from people who think if you've never worked before you're not allowed to wanna ctb to avoid it

i don't necessarily agree but at least if you've worked a job before you can tell them to shut the fuck up lol. because they don't understand how worthless it feels for your value to be attached to a monetary amount. and all "working" did was make me more suicidal so clearly they don't know what they're talking about lol.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Same, I'd also rather ctb than work. I don't ever want to work

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I wish I could argue against that, but after 20 years of wage slaving, I think you are right. I basically spent my free time recovering from all the effort it took to act like a normal person.

 

[lnlybnny]

it takes a lot of applications these days to get interviews. it is normal to send out 1000 job applications and possibly only get 1 or 2 interviews. It's just a numbers game and anyone can get a job if they apply enough, although it doesn't always feel that way and can take time. If you think you could possibly be happy working, you could keep applying? Suicide is a difficult and horrible path, just attempting is hard and attempts don't always work. If there's a chance you could be happy if you worked, and haven't, it's an option. Community service is a great way to gain experience while looking for a job, and a great way to meet people and just see how you feel doing something. I am not anti-suicide but if you kept applying to jobs and started doing community service and got a life coach, you could end up happy in a year or two if you don't have severe medical problems.

yeah, i get it. i don't think you're wrong, but i do think it's worth at least working for a few weeks to see how bad it is for you personally.

idk i read a lot of comments on here from people who think if you've never worked before you're not allowed to wanna ctb to avoid it

i don't necessarily agree but at least if you've worked a job before you can tell them to shut the fuck up lol. because they don't understand how worthless it feels for your value to be attached to a monetary amount. and all "working" did was make me more suicidal so clearly they don't know what they're talking about lol.

one of my problems is i absolutely hate interacting with people and being around them, it makes me miserable when i have to interact with more than 3 people. i feel totally inept for any kind of job/course that requires social contact. i'm almost 30 and i've been isolating since 18 basically and i think that made things even worse, i think i lost all the little ability (that i basically never had) to socialize. i get so bummed at the thought of having to go through it all, also i feel old as fuck, like there's no hope anymore since i'm entering 30s and amounted to nothing. i feel horrible, the weight is too much, i wish i could ctb before i turn 30 (in feb). i truly feel ctb is my only way out.

 

[needthebus]

one of my problems is i absolutely hate interacting with people and being around them, it makes me miserable when i have to interact with more than 3 people. i feel totally inept for any kind of job/course that requires social contact. i'm almost 30 and i've been isolating since 18 basically and i think that made things even worse, i think i lost all the little ability (that i basically never had) to socialize. i get so bummed at the thought of having to go through it all, also i feel old as fuck, like there's no hope anymore since i'm entering 30s and amounted to nothing. i feel horrible, the weight is too much, i wish i could ctb before i turn 30 (in feb). i truly feel ctb is my only way out.

the world needs nighttime security guards who get paid to do little and interact with few

i'm not trying to convince you one way or another

it's your choice

sorry you're here

 

[lifelite]

I have to return to my extremely shitty job after few years. Or face homelessness. Holy hell I'm determined now. Never been this determined before to ctb.
And the people there making it even more unbearable. And winter time

 

[sevennn]

yeah. i relate. i went to school and hated how the teachers treated me. i don't think i can handle this dynamic for the rest of my life. of having someone with authority constantly bullying me. i'm a neet as well. working sounds so tiresome. i don't want to do anything anymore.

 

[peony]

same tbh, all work did to me was everyone I thought cared about me abandoning me bc I had less time and energy for them and being too tired/having too little freetime to pursue things I really care about.