Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[noname223]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

 

[lmon]

10', I have anhedonia/ cant feel pleasure. on top of that o have a constant sense of impending doom

 

[olkf]

8 - 10

 

[lobster salad]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

I was looking all over for the old one by squiddy but couldn't find it. That Sucks to hear, deleted. Today I felt a bit sick, but I am getting something done, just a bit late. Made people angry too. Overall 3 for today it is okay

 

[Grav]

About a 7, sometimes hitting 8.

 

[Crazy4u]

10/10 I am looking forward to ctb

 

[Treeline589]

9

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

8-9

 

[FuneralCry]

I occasionally posted in the original rate your suicidal thoughts thread. I wonder what happened to it. It was a popular thread.
I am at a 9, as I never want to be alive. Nothing will ever make me want to live. Everyday I have feelings of dread and hopelessness. I wish I never had to experience life in the first place. I think it is a big mistake that I was born. I always think to myself that there is no point. I am envious of those with the peaceful ways to exit, the thought of dying comforts me a lot.

 

[demuic]

10

 

[dearlybeloved998]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

Yesterday they were an eight, but honestly felt like a nine, so I will say eight to nine. Today they're a seven because I'm dedicated to trying to feel better and hope for a life worth living. I need to stop lurking in this forum if I want to do this tbh. I've never had a ten, if ten signifies active suicidalism.

 

[Noctis]

Like 6 or 7? I've been at a 8-9 recently, so this 6-7 feels like a really low level of suicidality.

 

[Nanako]

10, but I can't do anything right now. When is this going to end? I feel like garbage, I don't even have the energy to describe what I'm feeling right now, I just want to die so bad but right now it's impossible. Mentally I'm begging for someone or something to kill me right now, I genuinely can't begin to comprehend how anyone is supposed to just cope with this.
What did I do to deserve this, it feels like a neverending nightmare

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I'm going through a crisis right now. So 10 for me.

 

[bear_trapped]

today is about a 9 :/

 

[lex]

9.9 today

 

[EraseRewind]

8 today

 

[Arot]

Maybe 7 or 8. Gonna ctb in a couple of months so maybe by then my suicidal thoughts could be a 9 or a solid 10.

 

[Foresight]

3. Any day I get to stay inside I stay 4 or below.

 

[Onthe29th]

I just came back from school, everyone is so bright and smart, and cheerful but I'm here…definitely a 10

 

[Arrow]

Today's a 1 honestly. Realistically should probably be higher but for now I'm chilling. I'll try to keep it that way.

 

[Faraknur]

9

 

[cyanol]

8 or 9.
Don't have much time left.

 

[noname223]

It increased to 6. I am overthinking my life extremely hard. I despise me. I feel ashamed. I am a fucking idiot.
I am currently in a very bad place. This is not good. Took half a lorazepam. Noone answers my thread where I describe how I am feeling.
I feel so ashamed...
My thoughts are racing...this is really hard to endure. But I think the lorazepam begins to work.

 

[dreadpirateroberts69]

On average I would say about a 7, but it goes up and down of course

 

[Iwantodiepleasehelp]

10

 

[clown_17]

Probably a 6. Average is 5 but it'll jump to 9 randomly.

 

[anxious_depressive]

7

 

[noname223]

It is currently 4. Still ruminating about the past incident. Scared about today. It could increase my pain...

I still struggle but I have a lot of responsibilies and don't have that much time to think about my unhappiness.

 

[Chronicillness]

A 10 to me is post-ingestion of nembutal, which is a final goodbye. Right now, I am at a 9/10. This past 10 days or so have been close to the worst days of my life.