Discussion Random urges to shoot yourself

[BlooBerryBanjo3000]

Does anybody else get the random urge to just grab a gun (literally any gun you could get your hands on) and shoot yourself with it? Don't you ever think "just do it", "just kill yourself" already", "just get it over with already", during those random urges? Do you just know deep down that things won't get better? Are you at peace with it, just numb to all of these suicidal urges and thoughts?

 

[lilurki]

Yes, frequently if not always

 

[NoHorizon]

Stabbing rather than shooting, but yeah often, to the point where I sometimes catch myself actually making a stabbing motion into the side of my stomach which is embarrassing if I'm in public.

 

[Halfhourdays]

Yes, all the time.

 

[SnowLeopard21]

Literally every other hour, if not at least once a day.

 

[BrokenMindAndBody]

I wish I could get legal access to a gun. But, I live in the most cucked state in the country for guns. I hate this fucking place. Liberals are the worst. They're fake as fuck and act like they care while patting themselves on the back yet don't actually do anything. If they were really liberal they'd allow me to leave this place peacefully of my own choice. I can't even purchase a gun because I'm in the mental health system. Plus, from what I understand even if you can get a gun here you're very limited on the type and amount of ammunition and they purposely make hand guns very expensive. I don't wanna kill anyone. Just myself.

 

[ForeverCaHa]

For many years now I've had sporadic urges to jump from bridges I walk over, hang myself from any visible anchor point I see when I'm walking around, throw myself into the river near my house. If guns were easy to access here (UK based), that method would undoubtedly be added to my list of fantasies.

I have my plan ready to go though, so for now at least I'm not allowing myself to dwell on those urges in particular. I also don't want a public suicide (bridge jumping, drowning outdoors etc) as I don't really want to be plastered over local media. But if SN fails, then you never know what could happen.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I wish I could get legal access to a gun. But, I live in the most cucked state in the country for guns. I hate this fucking place. Liberals are the worst. They're fake as fuck and act like they care while patting themselves on the back yet don't actually do anything. If they were really liberal they'd allow me to leave this place peacefully of my own choice. I can't even purchase a gun because I'm in the mental health system. Plus, from what I understand even if you can get a gun here you're very limited on the type and amount of ammunition and they purposely make hand guns very expensive. I don't wanna kill anyone. Just myself.

Last year I went to a gun show , asked the sellers if any other seller was selling guns without a background check. They pointed me to a guy who said he would sell me a shotgun cash. He had several shotguns for sale . All I had to do is hand him the cash no id no background check

I won't say which state.

 

[BrokenMindAndBody]

Last year I went to a gun show , asked the sellers if any other seller was selling guns without a background check. They pointed me to a guy who said he would sell me a shotgun cash. He had several shotguns for sale . All I had to do is hand him the cash no id no background check

I won't say which state.

Yeah, that's like in the south and mid west. I'm aware. I'm talking about somewhere in the northeast.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yeah, that's like in the south and mid west. I'm aware. I'm talking about somewhere in the northeast.

anywhere that gun shows are allowed . internet searching will find the locations and dates closest .

 

[tiredoflife2]

I've got a thing about gassing myself and falling asleep.

 

[Halfhourdays]

I also find myself wanting to walk into traffic.

 

[ventingfrustrations]

I've literally stopped looking for traffic
When walking
I want to die and be revived so I can see nothing
That's literally the only thing that would make me not kms
At least not until a health crisis