Random thoughts

[RileyTanaka]

Managed to get some more writing in tonight though I struggled the whole time cognitively. Also found some sweet deals on ebay for software download keys so I won't have to go to fiverr and hire someone else to do some basic work for me.

Unrelated but I want a dope ass work station with two computer monitors, PCU, and a tall back ergonomic chair. It's odd to want such trivial things when life is so shit but I can't help myself. A nice office space makes me feel like less of a degenerate.

 

[Life sucks]

Why humans are toxic and never change no matter what happens. Shitty species

 

[TheSoulless]

Got some money from a relative since I graduated. Great. Bought a really expensive thing with some of the money. Not great. The amount of remorse I have right now is quite large.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Can't sleep.. Again. This is starting to really piss me of

 

[Oyoy]

Last night I moved. I bought a economy jar of pickles and spilled them in my car.and in my shoes.

 

[RileyTanaka]

Pro food tip: put french onion rings in your sandwich. Goes great with egg salad.

 

[Circles]

Most of everything can be considered a prison, with so many layers of being trapped. This universe, this world, life itself, your mind, body, emotions, pain, etc. it's all a prison of some kind. Hell even death can be since when you're dead it's not like you have any options to get out of being dead forever. And the thing about death is even when you want nothing more than to die and think it's the closest thing to actual freedom you'll still be trapped, trapped forever in nothingness with no options unless the universe somehow restarts your consciousness. Not that I don't want to die but holy fuck it's hard to accept between just 2 options (life or death) when they're both out of our complete fucking control.

 

[Morphinekiss]

I don't know if I'm getting better or if all the weight loss is pleasing my eating disorder enough to quiet my depression.

 

[RileyTanaka]

Nothing like being treated like an afterthought during one of the worst moments of your life. But that's nothing new. Move along.

 

[omoidarui]

listening to my parents argue is making me want to ctb xd

 

[Sabriel]

It feels like the calm before the storm...my birthday is coming up and I feel as though I'll somehow either be able to completely embrace and accept my life's circumstances, or that I'll gain the peace to quietly start to begin planning my exit. I'm not sure how this coin toss will land...

 

[Morphinekiss]

Glad I got high and slept like a corpse last night, because I was not prepared for the shit storm that hit today.

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

If you have some SN with 99% of purity and won't use it, you can always ship it to me ;)

 

[Lorntroubles]

I have my method to ctb, yet still have willpower to wait. Conditions have to be perfect first for me to ctb. Oh, it's comin', and imma ride dat horse da hell out dis bitch!!!

 

[TheNorthernSilence]

No lives matter.

 

[Life sucks]

Humans are shitty and toxic. What happens now tells the same thing. Racism, politics and bullshit while people suffer. Then comes the shitty natalist and reproduce more to fuel the suffering. Shitty species.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Just gave the dog her last bath. I've done a lot of hard things but this is going to be hell.

 

[Life sucks]

Racism is stupid, wrong and toxic. All humans are one species. All humans are consciousnesses glued to random bodies living in a random location in a random time. The shitty species won't understand this and continue the hate.

 

[ForensicallyAware]

Wish I'd killed myself the day I left high school

 

[DyslexicForeigner]

I wonder if there was a suicidal looters who has an idea of looting expensive N from a vet store?

 

[kinzokukae]

i really wanna start an argument just for the sake of it - maybe even to get my friends to turn against me, abandon me, whatever. maybe it'd make me feel something

 

[Lydia]

I miss the old me. However, I did have the spark to make some homemade brownies and I haven't been fussed to enjoy baking for years so there's that.

 

[FusRohDracarys]

The arrow for first/last page in a thread really annoys me on mobile. Somehow, I always click that instead of the next/previous button.

 

[Lorntroubles]

Force me back, the living days
I'm falling, dying, forceful gaze
Nothing's here and nothing's clear
And I need you, I need you here
And I need you here, and I need you here
I need you enough
Fall around, lie around, next to him, next to her
It's ok, we can talk we can talk, this will hurt
Fall around, lie around, next to him, next to her
It's ok, we can talk, we can talk, this will hurt
Force me back, the deathly days
I'm rising, serving, resentful gaze
Nothing's here and nothing's clear
And I miss you, I miss you
And I need you here, and I miss you
I miss you enough

 

[GoBack]

People are so fucked up, and all walking around thinking they're alone in that fuckedupness when the person next to them is fucked up too

 

[1DayItWillBover]

fuck it nothing matters

 

[a.n.kirillov]

It makes no difference whether you live a long or a short, a fulfilled or a sad life. Death is ultimate justice and there is nothing to fear about it.
I am at peace with both being gone forever and being reborn.

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

 

[GoBack]

When someone puts the wow thing on my comment it's confusing. Is it wow good or bad, shock or horror

 

[pete_x]

I like pi.