Gray Wounds
A Phantasmagoria
- Jun 27, 2018
- 574
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Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
I've come to tell you my thoughts because I've got no one else to tell them to. So let me tell you about my day :). I went to see bohemian Rhapsody earlier it was lovely... I had a terrible stomach ache because of the cheese from the shit ton of pizza id eaten earlier. on my drive home I saw a woman's bare ass while she took a shit on the side walk... I smoked some CBD and it helped my stomach ache a bunch... I went to my room to eat 2 more slices of pizzaaaa... goodnight ss
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
I am so vulnerable. The world terrifies me.
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
I'm not particularly happy about dying but I'm at my wit's end... I can't continue like this and I'm tired of trying so hard
EmotionlessWanderer
Specialist
- Jan 19, 2019
- 352
Isn't it ironic how a site themed around death makes you feel more alive than all the others?
Dandelion
Wrap you in yarn and grass, embalm you with milk
- May 11, 2019
- 25
ShadowOfTheDay
Hungry Ghost
- Feb 14, 2019
- 331
Yeah, every time I've tried conventional "therapy," or "counseling," etc., it has only left me feeling more alone, misunderstood and alien. Here, at least, I'm reminded that my problems are shared by thousands (probably millions) of other people all around the earth, and from all walks of life. You are definitely right--that is ironic.
I would have probably killed my self by now if I had never found this site.Last edited:
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
pane
Hollow
- Apr 29, 2019
- 358
I'm literally shaking of excitement about dying. I need to die so hard. If I wasn't so analytical I would've done it alreadyWhy people like to lie so much? Theyre disgusting. Absolutely abominable. The lowest kind of being.Last edited:
Weems
Experienced
- May 5, 2019
- 204
Don't even joke about that Freddy
suffering
Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
- Aug 17, 2018
- 398
My parents put me down some many times in my childhood, that I have internalized rudeness as something normal. It takes awhile for me to process "wait, this is not ok" and usually when I do, I act with assertiveness (as I should), but unfortunately with some delay, and therefore I come across as passive aggressive.
To keep myself in an assertive state all the time, to remain vigilant, is so exhaustive.. Not to mention all the hardships I have to face because I'm alone. Not only did they throw me into this world without my consent, but they also traumatized me, those pieces of shit.
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
We can no longer afford to live with the complexity of the present time. Is it possible to exterminate the things that can extinguish us, throughout history humans have been destroying the planet.
Extremly kind <3
Student
- Jun 8, 2019
- 192
I hope I have the time machine like the one in back to the future series, just to correct one decision which seemed logicak but then ruined my whole life forcing me to CTB :(Last edited:
Crystal Labeija
Experienced
- Jun 3, 2019
- 216
I really hate the world. I love myself. I just don't belong in the world. I belong in a different puzzle piece.I wish, so much, that one of my friends would reach out and ask me what is wrong but I know it won't happen
BipolarExpat
Accomplished faker
- May 30, 2019
- 698
We need to change the culture of this topic and make it OK to speak about mental health and suicide.
Luke Richardson
manwewaslonely
shrug
- Jun 13, 2019
- 31
Id start over too, but from the age of 13-14. Since then I started making mistakes that ruined my life. Some I learned from but the consequences will last forever. If I could go back just 3 years, or even one year, I could change a lot for the better. It's amazing how many things can go wrong in a short amount of time.
Help_Me
Gene pool mistake
- Oct 21, 2018
- 516
My today's random though I'm gonna share with all amazing SS dwellers : I'm constantly having pretty unpleasant head-aches, since we moved from one office (it was an excellent one) to another (garbage pit inconvenient for work). Really small place with huge amount of noise. I know for sure I won't "survive" here for too long and I'll have to leave it. I am getting pretty nervous as I wanted to get driving license probably next year in order to buy a huge gas tank and transfer it to my countryside and finish myself with inert gas and all this stuff.. But now I have problems which can possibly leave me with no money to reach my ctb goals in future...
suffering
Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
- Aug 17, 2018
- 398
I rode in a bus today. Crowded, many people that looked sick, poor and old.
It filled me with fear.
I am relatively young, relatively smart and relatively hard working. But I have no family, no financial safety net and a very strong survival instinct, which I know would prevent me from escaping hell, even if I would decide to. Some really bad luck and some twist of fate and my life might turn to horror.
May I use this fear as motivation to work harder and achieve a comfortable life. Because I don't know how if I would be able to remain a stoic in a world of terrors.Last edited:
lululoo
Mage
- Dec 15, 2018
- 558
I've now had dreams about three family members being bus drivers. It took me awhile to catch on to the meaning!
Going Home
Specialist
- Sep 21, 2018
- 357
Weems
Experienced
- May 5, 2019
- 204
shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up
It does seem somewhat plausible, though. Does the universe/multiverse go on forever? Then things would eventually repeat, right? And what could be you but...you? It's not like "you" could live some other life...
I wish I could, knowing what I know now.
But if everyone could, would I end up on the bottom like this anyways? Unless we all went with basic income, the lower economic class basically has to exist, right? Scary stuff.
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
SinisterKid
Visionary
- Jun 1, 2019
- 2,113
Well according the Meyers, blah de cannot remember their freakin names, personality test, I am a Adventurer, so toodle pip, I am off to climb everest, should be back by Friday.
