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not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
- May 30, 2019
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I wonder how many "Random thoughts" threads are on SS.
Dont bother with them they are stupid bitches!So after what happened at work yesterday day and last night, I've come to the realization that i am just done. i don't have it in me to fight any more. I'm just to broken and just hurt to much and can get triggered by the slightest comment. going to get my exit plan started.
edit: at work yesterday, i was re-assigned from customer service to back into med research (yah) but while packing up my desk i over heard a few of the women i work with out in the hall saying 'thank god she is being moved, she is just too weird'. broke the little bits that still remain of my heart. nearly burst into tears. but kept it together until i got home.
Aye, normally i could, but at the moment it's death by a thousand cuts. i just to hurt to shrug it off any more. but your right. i shouldn't give a damn what other people stay especially since I'm 40+ years old. but yeah. just too broken to shrug it off any more.Dont bother with them they are stupid bitches!
Be strong, sending you big eHUG :)Aye, normally i could, but at the moment it's death by a thousand cuts. i just to hurt to shrug it off any more. but your right. i shouldn't give a damn what other people stay especially since I'm 40+ years old. but yeah. just too broken to shrug it off any more.
So after what happened at work yesterday day and last night, I've come to the realization that i am just done. i don't have it in me to fight any more. I'm just to broken and just hurt to much and can get triggered by the slightest comment. going to get my exit plan started.
edit: at work yesterday, i was re-assigned from customer service to back into med research (yah) but while packing up my desk i over heard a few of the women i work with out in the hall saying 'thank god she is being moved, she is just too weird'. broke the little bits that still remain of my heart. nearly burst into tears. but kept it together until i got home.
Thanks, muchly for the hugs, sadly my social circle is gone, most of them have passed away. sucks getting old.Be strong, sending you big eHUG :)
Social withdrawal,bullying etc. Is always hard to deal with. I hope you have some good ppl around you that can support you.
Thanks. yeah. really hurt to hear that. i was under the impression that i was actually semi-good friends with these women but as per normal. women can be out right nasty to each other when they want to be. hell, they eve brought me a cake and a nice present when i came back to work. so um yeah! :-(Omg that's awful. I know what it means to be considered too weird by others. I know it's impossible to ignore it so I won't recommend you to forget. You're not alone.
A lot of people can be so fake.Thanks. yeah. really hurt to hear that. i was under the impression that i was actually semi-good friends with these women but as per normal. women can be out right nasty to each other when they want to be. hell, they eve brought me a cake and a nice present when i came back to work. so um yeah! :-(
My mother's side of the family has a history of thyroid cancer. I went to the doctor to get tested for thyroid cancer recently. The results came back negative. So disappointing. It would be easier if I could get a terminal disease.
I actually might have hugged the doctor if he told me I had cancer. Hell, I might have even done a happy dance in the middle of the doctor's office. That's how hopeful I was when I was waiting for my results.I know, once when I was just done, I suspected a cancer as well and was so hopeful. It turned out to be some other terrible but curable thing.
I actually might have hugged the doctor if he told me I had cancer. Hell, I might have even done a happy dance in the middle of the doctor's office. That's how hopeful I was when I was waiting for my results.
Haha I'm sure he would be. I already have a reputation for being weird though. And if I'm gonna die, why should I care? :DHe would be pretty weirded out.
I actually might have hugged the doctor if he told me I had cancer. Hell, I might have even done a happy dance in the middle of the doctor's office. That's how hopeful I was when I was waiting for my results.
Im so infinitely tired of miself, I wish i was born aagain as a "normal", decent, good person and not the stupid selfish cancer that im.
I'm sure that stupid selfish cancers do not really think that of themselves, so there's that.