rambles of a lonely girl pt 2

[rainydaysnail]

It has been nearly three months since I last posted about how lonely I am. Since then, my feelings of loneliness have only increased and I have failed to maintain any new connections despite trying my best. I think it's time for me to accept that there really is something fundamentally wrong with me and that it would be best for me to take my life. There is nothing left for me here and I clearly don't add anything positive to the lives of others, otherwise people would keep me around. I write this crying into my pillow as I listen to all my family members get ready for their different plans for the day, knowing not a single person will reach out to me today. I don't see the point in me living every single day feeling miserable when I don't need to.. I can just let it all go. I don't know what the purpose of this post is, I just needed to write my feelings down somewhere.

 

[pk@2001]

Don't feel disheartened, I know it's hard as we'll have been left behind by our loved ones to face this alone.
Instead you must try to look for the source for your happiness and positiveness. If something isn't working around us don't mean the whole fault and burden lies on us..
Besides, we all have your back here on Sasu

 

[heal]

knowing not a single person will reach out to me today.

I figure you are referring to the people currently within your life, but I want to offer you some effort and care through responding to this post.

Simply speaking in terms of perspective: I find many of the most social people I know are primarily the ones making the effort to reach out to others, rather than being on the receiving end. They just seem to be okay with this fact and rarely consider the imbalance. The common thread with the happiest people I have met is that they do not tend to overthink things, and I imagine feeling rewarded for their efforts reinforces engaging with others this way.

I know however that you are seeking something more tangible, and a shift in perspective can only offer so much to ease your loneliness. If you truly feel that you are at the end of your rope and have nothing left to lose, then why not continue to try and seek new friendships? I understand there are likely other factors impacting your ability to connect with others, and perhaps that is easier said than done, but I want to believe that is still possible for you to achieve. I sincerely hope you find the connection you are looking for, and am rooting for your success.

 

[tonicer]

I know this won't make you feel any better but just know that many people are lonely too. If you see someone somewhere who looks lost and lonely and that someone seems nice to you reach out to that someone you might make that someone a little bit happier and in turn you will feel better too. Maybe it even starts a nice conversation and maybe it starts a small friendship if you have something in common with that someone. I got such conversations a couple of times over years and it always ended in a happy goodbye and i wish i would meet that person again. These small interactions make life a little more bearable for me.

 

[rainydaysnail]

Don't feel disheartened, I know it's hard as we'll have been left behind by our loved ones to face this alone.
Instead you must try to look for the source for your happiness and positiveness. If something isn't working around us don't mean the whole fault and burden lies on us..
Besides, we all have your back here on Sasu

thank you

I figure you are referring to the people currently within your life, but I want to offer you some effort and care through responding to this post.

Simply speaking in terms of perspective: I find many of the most social people I know are primarily the ones making the effort to reach out to others, rather than being on the receiving end. They just seem to be okay with this fact and rarely consider the imbalance. The common thread with the happiest people I have met is that they do not tend to overthink things, and I imagine feeling rewarded for their efforts reinforces engaging with others this way.

I know however that you are seeking something more tangible, and a shift in perspective can only offer so much to ease your loneliness. If you truly feel that you are at the end of your rope and have nothing left to lose, then why not continue to try and seek new friendships? I understand there are likely other factors impacting your ability to connect with others, and perhaps that is easier said than done, but I want to believe that is still possible for you to achieve. I sincerely hope you find the connection you are looking for, and am rooting for your success.

thank you for your kind words