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Lady Laudanum
Arcanist
- May 9, 2024
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Taking a bath while having my last drinks and pills sounds like a plan. If I pass out and drown, it's still more than 4 hours until my scheduled message gets sent out, so maybe I won't even have to hang myself in that case. If I manage to have my bath without passing out, then that'll be nice too. It's something that I just want to do for myself. I know that it won't make any difference in a few hours.
I'm going to sleep for another hour now. After that, I may or may not log back in. I hope that no one misses me.
My ex said that they never want to see me again for as long as they live. It would be easier on them if they actually hate me at this point. I'm a piece of shit. That's why I got molested as a kid. How could anyone not hate me?@Lady Laudanum I mean, I support your decision and I understand that it sounds like a nightmare, however... You say you "hurt the only person you have ever loved"... Does that person know that you feel that way?
Honestly, I don't know you at all, however, I am just curious, if your partner is like disgusted/done with you? My ex-wife is supporting me and I'm a TOTAL piece of shit, yet I think she still cares.
I have tried placing my handgun in my mouth, it fits nicely, however, I have not had the balls to pull the trigger yet, because I always find myself thinking about the "What if" or "What's next"?.... I'm a trainwreck dear and I am still thinking about what could be? I mean, based on your mind set, I support you, and I 100% understand, however, based on your description of the situation, I don't think anyone would "Not" care/hurt....
I'm going to sleep for another hour now. After that, I may or may not log back in. I hope that no one misses me.
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