Quit on 1st day

[Blue_mist]

This morning was my first day of new job as caregiver. I had brain fog and i couldn't focus on the assignments and i had multiple panic attacks, sweating like crazy and my uniform was soaking wet from sweat. Every job i had in my life was horrible experience. Today I reached the conclusion that I'm good for nothing. I went to the liquor store bought 2 bottles of whiskey and got home and started to cut myself with a box cutter and it felt good. I've decided to stay home until i run out of money and stop paying property tax then i will be homeless then ask for euthanasia when it becomes available in Canada for mentally ill people or i wait for the Canadian winter to hit hard and with a bottle of vodka i ctb by hypothermia . Gosh i lookeed miserable today.

 

[Wojaczek]

then ask for euthanasia when it becomes available in Canada for mentally ill people

Is this gonna be a thing? Honestly wouldnt be surprised if it were

 

[fox_wannabe]

Omg, this is sad man. I doubt there will be euthanasia available for you. And you better not spend all your money you might as well use that money to exit in better way then hypothermia. If you want to die that bad why choose such terrible method. It won't be a good way to end It. I am sorry

I also do get anxiety attacks when working, that is why I do not see myself living

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering and had such an awful experience. Life is just so depressing. At least you have the option of euthanasia though, I wish I had that. We all deserve a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[demuic]

They would probably make you wait a long time to get it, if they accept you at all. In countries where it is already allowed few are accepted.

I would personally prefer to go out on my on terms rather than be paraded in front of psych assholes, waiting for them to determine whether I'm suffering enough or not.

I'm sorry you're suffering so badly. I've also quit a job on the first day before, twice. It can be a very anxiety provoking situation.

 

[Blue_mist]

Omg, this is sad man. I doubt there will be euthanasia available for you. And you better not spend all your money you might as well use that money to exit in better way then hypothermia. If you want to die that bad why choose such terrible method. It won't be a good way to end It. I am sorry

I also do get anxiety attacks when working, that is why I do not see myself living

Thanks for your kindness. Hypothermia is not that bad when you are drunk. Alcohol makes much easier and i tried it before.

 

[fox_wannabe]

Thanks for your kindness. Hypothermia is not that bad when you are drunk. Alcohol makes much easier and i tried it before.

I just don't like for people to suffer. I hope you won't make things worse by spending money on alcohol

 

[BrokenHopes]

I can feel your pain through the screen. The utter hopelessnes and excruciating pain screaming from your soul. I have felt it many times in life, also in similar situations as you. I am so sorry for your suffering. You are not alone. I hope you find peace somehow.

 

[The Divine Comedy]

Being homeless sounds like a different kind of torture.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

They would probably make you wait a long time to get it, if they accept you at all. In countries where it is already allowed few are accepted.

I would personally prefer to go out on my on terms rather than be paraded in front of psych assholes, waiting for them to determine whether I'm suffering enough or not.

I'm sorry you're suffering so badly. I've also quit a job on the first day before, twice. It can be a very anxiety provoking situation.

I have quit or been fired from every single Job that I have ever had.

 

[Crimsonghost3]

That's pretty much what I'm doing just got my last check haven't paid bills in months don't really leave my apt because I get really bad anxiety and panic attacks these days so I'm planning to ctb before they finally kick me out pretty much kept my phone on so I don't lose my mind every second of the day I'm not really even eating but once my last check is gone I guess I am too

 

[Blue_mist]

That's pretty much what I'm doing just got my last check haven't paid bills in months don't really leave my apt because I get really bad anxiety and panic attacks these days so I'm planning to ctb before they finally kick me out pretty much kept my phone on so I don't lose my mind every second of the day I'm not really even eating but once my last check is gone I guess I am too

I'm so sorry for your suffering . I noticed members have a lot in common. Most of us share the same agony, the same struggle. I wish we could have periodic meetings let's say once a month. I understand we live in different countries but everyone could arrange with members who live close by.
It's just a suggestion and I hope it gets some attention

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'm so sorry for your suffering . I noticed members have a lot in common. Most of us share the same agony, the same struggle. I wish we could have periodic meetings let's say once a month. I understand we live in different countries but everyone could arrange with members who live close by.
It's just a suggestion and I hope it gets some attention

I'm in

 

[medjooled11]

No one is perfect. Good jobs are hard to come by. I've quit every job I've had, and have never held the same job for longer than a year.
I'm sorry about the brain fog. I feel you. Depression has wrecked my memory and concentration.

You're not good for nothing. If you ever want to talk or need someone to listen, I'm here for you :)

 

[WOODESITY]

Omg, this is sad man. I doubt there will be euthanasia available for you. And you better not spend all your money you might as well use that money to exit in better way then hypothermia. If you want to die that bad why choose such terrible method. It won't be a good way to end It. I am sorry

I also do get anxiety attacks when working, that is why I do not see myself living

Why you say terrible method, it is different for every individual,could be terrible for you but for me personally it is very comforting and peaceful, no offense at all

 

[fox_wannabe]

Why you say terrible method, it is different for every individual,could be terrible for you but for me personally it is very comforting and peaceful, no offense at all

well, If it is peaceful for you than I understand. Just being drunk in the woods didn't feel right for me. No need to be angry.