I'm neither poor nor rich. Having some inheritance money enabled me to pursue the education and career I wanted. Without that buffer, I doubt I would have risked attempting a creative career. So- money has been crucial to me as a foundation.
However, I live more or less hand to mouth now. So- the pressure to always have work and to get by financially is a constant stress and I'm just tired of it. Plus- I'm freelance so will have next to no pension. No sick pay too. So, it's also the prospect of a penniless retirement or more likely- never being able to retire that is a troubling prospect.
So- money isn't an immediate problem in terms of the risk of destitution. But, it's a problem in as much as I hate being such a slave to it. I suppose winning the lottery would take the pressure off. I'm not sure it would be the end of my problems though. Life would feel more relaxed certainly. But, I wonder if I'd ever really feel that excited about living. Even with money. Plus, you can't exactly buy off illness always.
However, I live more or less hand to mouth now. So- the pressure to always have work and to get by financially is a constant stress and I'm just tired of it. Plus- I'm freelance so will have next to no pension. No sick pay too. So, it's also the prospect of a penniless retirement or more likely- never being able to retire that is a troubling prospect.
So- money isn't an immediate problem in terms of the risk of destitution. But, it's a problem in as much as I hate being such a slave to it. I suppose winning the lottery would take the pressure off. I'm not sure it would be the end of my problems though. Life would feel more relaxed certainly. But, I wonder if I'd ever really feel that excited about living. Even with money. Plus, you can't exactly buy off illness always.
