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suicidal jirai

suicidal jirai

Hanged angel
May 23, 2025
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Preparations are sorta almost complete, I have my noose and a slipknot, I might bring a belt, I'm still deciding, whether o just wear a simple and easy outfit, or one of my favourite outfits, I might try, climbing up to the train tracks, tying my ligature and then jumping, I don't know if the bridge near me is high enough to jump and die from, I'll upload a picture tomorrow I would like others opinions too, please could I have some advice in that regard, yet, I haven't even had it in me to shower..., could someone...please give me some words of comfort before I go...I wouldn't like to die alone...maybe...in someone's arms...in comfort...but then again, life is cruel and unfair and that won't happen which is why I'm asking for words of comfort,.sorry for repeating myself...I'm just so broken and sick and tired of this life.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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For clarification, are you planning on a full-suspension hanging or a long-drop hanging or jumping? You mention a rope but are also talking about bridge height.
 
LastNite

LastNite

Hello World
Mar 31, 2025
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Please take care. You dont have to rush things. Go take a warm shower and maybe a nap afterwards. Give yourself more time maybe you won't regret it. A hot warm shower will clear your mind up and it'll help you calm down for now.
 
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suicidal jirai

suicidal jirai

Hanged angel
May 23, 2025
29
For clarification, are you planning on a full-suspension hanging or a long-drop hanging or jumping? You mention a rope but are also talking about bridge height.
Long drop hanging and if it doesn't work, then either, jumping, or partial suspension
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Please take care. You dont have to rush things. Go take a warm shower and maybe a nap afterwards. Give yourself more time maybe you won't regret it. A hot warm shower will clear your mind up and it'll help you calm down for now.

Thank you, I've just taken a shower<3
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Please take care. You dont have to rush things. Go take a warm shower and maybe a nap afterwards. Give yourself more time maybe you won't regret it. A hot warm shower will clear your mind up and it'll help you calm down for now.

Thank you, I've just taken a shower<3
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I really understand feeling so tired of suffering, I also feel so tired of it all, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

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May 10, 2025
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good luck
hope everything goes well for you 🍀
 
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