Method “Catching the bus” this week.

[democritusjunior]

I'll be taking a painting off of my bedroom wall, attaching my leather belt to the nail, and hanging myself—Smerdyakov style. Drug overdose isn't an option; furthermore, I'm hindered by not having experienced much violence in my life (see Thomas Joiner's why 'Why People Die by Suicide' for why that's relevant) which might galvanize me to cut open an artery, inflict a fatal stab wound (e.g., to my heart), jump from a bridge, etc.

I'm very discontented with my life and somewhat miserable that my circle (understandably, mind you) aren't acting toward me as if it were my final days on Earth. Those closest to me in my family are too mentally ill to suffer my misery; likewise, my only emotionally available friends are too self-obsessed to realize the gulf of difference between the cathexis I invest in them and that they invest in me. This all sounds very narcissistic, I know, but it's really not.

 

[houseofleaves]

I'll be taking a painting off of my bedroom wall, attaching my leather belt to the nail, and hanging myself

Only if you're 100% sure that the leather belt won't slip from the nail. Also i cannot imagine leather being slippery enough. I understand it's not my business, but if i were you, i'd reconsider and change my method.

 

[democritusjunior]

Only if you're 100% sure that the leather belt won't slip from the nail. Also i cannot imagine leather being slippery enough. I understand it's not my business, but if i were you, i'd reconsider and change my method.

There's a pretty good distance between the head of the nail and the wall. It's also small enough that it can fit easily through a belt hole. Slip from the nail? Impossible. Bend the nail? Maybe, but that also seems unlikely. I did a test run and it seemed fine in all respects: supported my weight and the belt felt tight around my neck.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace. Good luck!

 

[houseofleaves]

There's a pretty good distance between the head of the nail and the wall. It's also small enough that it can fit easily through a belt hole. Slip from the nail? Impossible. Bend the nail? Maybe, but that also seems unlikely. I did a test run and it seemed fine in all respects: supported my weight and the belt felt tight around my neck.

The nail also can be ripped out of the wall, just saying. Best of luck to you, I hope you find what you need, no matter what you choose

 

[thekop85]

This sounds like a really difficult method to me.
But I hope you're able to complete the CTB successfully.
Good luck.
I'll be waiting for an update.

 

[larpex]

that wont work. A nail won't be able to substain your weight.

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[democritusjunior]

This sounds like a really difficult method to me.
But I hope you're able to complete the CTB successfully.
Good luck.
I'll be waiting for an update.

I'll probably respond to you again on the twelfth if I'm still alive, assuming I'm not in the ward for trying and failing to kill myself another way. I'm not going to touch this website on the day-of, though, whenever that may be.

 

[Minfilia]

sounds like a poetic way to go.
good luck, let us know how it went. i hope you'll find the peace you seek.

 

[pk@2001]

I hope you will find peace and get rid of your suffering and misery

 

[Captive_Mind515]

That's gotta be one hell of a nail, and some sort of solid concrete wall… and you weigh literally nothing.

In reality, there are no nails this strong and having worked in construction, if you're putting anything into solid concrete it's usually being drilled in not hammered. So a nail is very unlikely to hold your weight.

Not telling you what to do ofc, it's totally your choice. Best of luck. I hope you find your peace.