Help trying again?

[100memoryleaks]

so my failed partial hanging was low-key traumatizing although I could tell I got close I just know if I had picked a better spot perhaps I could have died. how long should I wait to try again. i feel so fucking embarrassed for failing. I'm a fucking idiot. i should really do FSH instead but like. i feel so fucking foolish for going through the entire process again. or maybe I should wait and find SN so I can just die in my sleep. idk someone help me. i can't even describe in words what I'm feeling rn. annoyed maybe?? just wish I didn't fucking stand up when I clearly had it. fuck si
oh yeah and I actually did tell a couple acquaintances online that I would attempt, imagine I tell them I'm going to try again, are they gonna fucking believe me

 

[bl33ding_heart]

You're not an idiot and you're not foolish. Actually going through with dying isn't easy at all. I also have many failed attempts. Dying is not something that needs to be rushed. I hope you can eventually be at peace with whatever you decide for yourself.

 

[100memoryleaks]

You're not an idiot and you're not foolish. Actually going through with dying isn't easy at all. I also have many failed attempts. Dying is not something that needs to be rushed. I hope you can eventually be at peace with whatever you decide for yourself.

thank you, I just wish I could spend my last days feeling happy that my pain will be over and not annoyed that my attempts aren't working