Venting Poll: did things get worse or better after your attempt?

[moonlightbeach]

just want to see if other people are experiencing this. attempted this year, things have been going downhill, in total i suffer more now than i suffered before the attempt. im fatigued daily and more depressed/anhedonic than ever, as well as dissociating every second. to me, attempt is anything where someone came close to ctb. even just going to the location counts if a person had the desire to ctb there, and they didn't proceed for whichever reason at the time.

 

[Unicron]

Things have got far worse for me, I dearly wish I'd succeeded but now can't try again because I know how much I hurt my parents. Now I'm just stuck in this eternal misery.

 

[moonlightbeach]

Things have got far worse for me, I dearly wish I'd succeeded but now can't try again because I know how much I hurt my parents. Now I'm just stuck in this eternal misery.

im sorry. i wish that our problems fade away one way or another.

 

[logen9inefingers]

i wish i had succeeded back in april, my biggest ever regret.

 

[Forveleth]

Curious as to why you out "got worse" and "stayed the same" together. Those are quite different outcomes.

 

[MrBigSad]

after i attempted was the first time in years my dad ever hugged me or told me he loved me. it's been an uphill battle but i feel a lot better than i used to.

 

[heldbyone]

just want to see if other people are experiencing this. attempted this year, things have been going downhill, in total i suffer more now than i suffered before the attempt. im fatigued daily and more depressed/anhedonic than ever, as well as dissociating every second. to me, attempt is anything where someone came close to ctb. even just going to the location counts if a person had the desire to ctb there, and they didn't proceed for whichever reason at the time.

Worse i'm now a weirdo psycho daughter who is very selfish

 

[westerly_merlin]

I have a recurring thought, it would have been better if I had succeeded.

Everyone tells me how sad everyone would be if I had CTB, the only person who thinks it would have been better for me to be gone is … me!