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after your attempt, did life get better or worse?

  • yes, things got better

    Votes: 2 6.5%
  • no, things got worse/stayed the same

    Votes: 19 61.3%
  • haven't attempted/results

    Votes: 10 32.3%

  • Total voters
    31
mlb

mlb

close your eyes and you'll leave this dream
Jul 14, 2025
151
just want to see if other people are experiencing this. attempted this year, things have been going downhill, in total i suffer more now than i suffered before the attempt. im fatigued daily and more depressed/anhedonic than ever, as well as dissociating every second. to me, attempt is anything where someone came close to ctb. even just going to the location counts if a person had the desire to ctb there, and they didn't proceed for whichever reason at the time.
 
Unicron

Unicron

Member
Oct 28, 2021
92
Things have got far worse for me, I dearly wish I'd succeeded but now can't try again because I know how much I hurt my parents. Now I'm just stuck in this eternal misery.
 
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mlb

mlb

close your eyes and you'll leave this dream
Jul 14, 2025
151
Things have got far worse for me, I dearly wish I'd succeeded but now can't try again because I know how much I hurt my parents. Now I'm just stuck in this eternal misery.
im sorry. i wish that our problems fade away one way or another.
 
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logen9inefingers

logen9inefingers

body found floating by the docks
Jan 13, 2025
11
i wish i had succeeded back in april, my biggest ever regret.
 
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F

Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,874
Curious as to why you out "got worse" and "stayed the same" together. Those are quite different outcomes.
 
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MrBigSad

MrBigSad

Experienced
Sep 30, 2020
261
after i attempted was the first time in years my dad ever hugged me or told me he loved me. it's been an uphill battle but i feel a lot better than i used to.
 
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heldbyone

heldbyone

A passer
Jun 12, 2022
46
just want to see if other people are experiencing this. attempted this year, things have been going downhill, in total i suffer more now than i suffered before the attempt. im fatigued daily and more depressed/anhedonic than ever, as well as dissociating every second. to me, attempt is anything where someone came close to ctb. even just going to the location counts if a person had the desire to ctb there, and they didn't proceed for whichever reason at the time.
Worse i'm now a weirdo psycho daughter who is very selfish
 
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westerly_merlin

westerly_merlin

keeping a low profile
Aug 13, 2025
204
I have a recurring thought, it would have been better if I had succeeded.

Everyone tells me how sad everyone would be if I had CTB, the only person who thinks it would have been better for me to be gone is … me!
 
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