Discussion [Poll] Are you receiving therapy/ professional MH care?

[Bikishii]

therapy works, sometimes doesn't. i think i'd have already offed myself 15+ years ago were it not for that, i'll leave that up to you whether you think that's a good or bad thing. it's given me time to mature and think through this if i do decide to make the decision. i've matured enough to give some degree of a fuck for others, thinking that at least if i take my own life then they don't need to be further traumatized by needing to identify an obliterated body, and so changed up my ideal method over the years to account for that. like somebody else in the thread said, "can't say i didn't try."

fucking meds... the ones that didn't have side effects also didn't work, and the ones that did work had unbearable side effects. have BZ for anxiety as needed (but take daily tbh) but even that is just a temporary blanket, not a fix. nothing has ever worked long term even when i've put up with the shitty side effects for a year.

honestly, worth giving a shot if you've got the money and resources. some of us are lifers (well, until we off ourselves) and some of us can have our minds changed. i can't tell you what is the best option for you. our lives may be very different, yours might be "objectively" much better or much worse than mine. but i mean we're talking to each other on here. just because someone has a stupid piece of paper and a few letters after their name doesn't necessarily immediately mean they can't provide the same support (if nothing else, a place to talk) that we can. i've had my same therapist for a long time and it was only within the last 12 months that i started talking more openly about suicide because i learned he wasn't a mandated reporter who had to call the squad on me if i dared even utter the S word.

but if you don't want to, eh, i'm not your mom. you're your own human with your own bodily autonomy (at least you should be) and so i can't tell you what to do one way or the other. just take care of yourself... whatever that may mean to you. be careful, whatever that may mean to you.

 

[RazorSharp]

Therapy can be good, tho warning it's not what you might expect it's a super long process to get into the sessions and actually make progress. same thing with medication

 

[suicide_grrl]

Pick the answer most suitable for your situation.

A lot of therapy. I'm prescribed meds but I do not take them. I feel very guilty about it.

 

[cookji]

As long as the underlying cause isn't resolved, taking medication won't really be effective

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I'm having terrible side effects from lurasidone and/or fluoxetine right now. Dry mouth and I feel like my tongue can't find a comfortable position. I feel at once brain dead and anxious.

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

No. I couldn't afford it if I wanted it. No insurance. Furthermore, I have no faith in the mental health system. There is sooooo much corruption I could write about.

I'm either going to kill myself, or I'm not. And no one is going to be able to make that decision for me.

 

[Kopfsalat]

really who can afford a long term treatment? It is very expensive and you need good luck to find a good therapist, one who really cares

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I'm having terrible side effects from lurasidone and/or fluoxetine right now. Dry mouth and I feel like my tongue can't find a comfortable position. I feel at once brain dead and anxious.

I stopped taking Lurasidone and I doubt that was a good idea. You're supposed to listen to your doctors. I hate the restlessness after I take it, though.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

I cancelled my psychologist yesterday. She pretty much told me she didn't know if she could help me. Honestly I wanna stop taking meds and see how far I go. I deserve the pain, as if I was born for it. Let me hurt alone until it doesn't hurt anymore.

 

[Aflame5926]

Had its 10 years ago(for about 6 years). it can work for people but not for me. they generalise a lot. Now back on a waiting list to attempt assisted suicide they probally reject it anyway but i can try. mean while searching for an alternative. because they are slow as F

 

[February_In_April]

Been through tons of therapy and medications over the past few decades. after all these years of trying and still trying to do medication and therapy nobody can blame me at the end of the day that I didn't try.

 

[whatdoidonow]

I realized that therapy and medication does nothing for me. It was the only hope I had left

 

[decayingangel]

I do have therapy but only twice a month bc it's from national health fund and my therapist sadly can't see me more often even though I need it. (My dad said he won't pay for my therapy and I can't afford it by myself). Still grateful to see her at all though.

 

[Aflame5926]

there should another F option called waiting list for unknown shit, not that it will help at all but got reasons

 

[BearTreadingWater]

Under the "care" of a mental health team. To be fair, the nurses and receptionist are great - the psychiatrist is the problem. Also getting counselling separate from that and been to mini courses through a local organisation.

On mood stabilisers for bipolar and a kid's drug for ADHD - just not the ones i need to be because my blood pressure won't behave itself when I'm in their office. Also been on antipsychotics for most of the past decade, but I'd rather put up with the voices. Sleepwalking outside naked isn't the best thing in a era of doorbell cams picking up movement!

 

[StalkedByDeath]

No. I need it, and I want to get back into therapy, but I just don't have the time with my current schedule. Everywhere around me only has availability on weekdays, whereas I only have availability on weekends.

 

[anopenwound]

As of now, no. My therapist became the therapist of someone I'd want to discuss BEFORE me and this someone parted ways. To say that that's uncomfortable would be the understatement of the century.

 

[borbloveslife]

No, never once even opened up

 

[GoGoTornado]

Tried therapy, three different therapists and it didn't help. Meds aren't helping so I go to a psychiatrist as often as I'm able to find the right balance of meds and practices.

 

[SoverignDreamer97]

Therapy indeed served its purpose in having someone to talk to, and indeed I was pretty close with my counselor. Thing is, her and I both knew that talking won't change the deadline, and that if I stayed, she'd become a liability with her professional obligations, which she and I both agreed would leave me worse off.

Therefore, I stopped seeing her 3 months before the deadline.

 

[WantingOut2]

I'm almost thinking about it again, even though I know it wouldn't solve my problems, just to have someone to talk to. I'm terribly lonely.
I don't know what to do.
The last one made me think she cared but she lied through her teeth.
Isolation is so terrible though.
And I wouldn't be able to say ANYTHING more than - at most - "passive suicidal ideations" as even that can get them in "alarmed" mode.
I don't know what to do.
And my shrink, he increased my propranolol (which I'm thinking may be my only choice for suicide), but won't increase my clonazepam - "it increases depression" - oh really, what does the PROPRANOLOL do?!? The moment I started it I got much deeper depressed than ever, with nightmares I hadn't been having before.
Sorry I rambled; this is the only place I can talk - ha, "talk" - write about it, without getting bullsh*t back.
I wish I had a whole bottle extra of the klonopin, even if it wouldn't kill me; I just wish I could sleep forever.....
I also wish so-called "normal" people understood what this is all like.....
instead, you get punished for having a bad reaction to a terrible situation.
And isolation makes it a million times WORSE.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

I'm almost thinking about it again, even though I know it wouldn't solve my problems, just to have someone to talk to. I'm terribly lonely.
I don't know what to do.
The last one made me think she cared but she lied through her teeth.
Isolation is so terrible though.
And I wouldn't be able to say ANYTHING more than - at most - "passive suicidal ideations" as even that can get them in "alarmed" mode.
I don't know what to do.
And my shrink, he increased my propranolol (which I'm thinking may be my only choice for suicide), but won't increase my clonazepam - "it increases depression" - oh really, what does the PROPRANOLOL do?!? The moment I started it I got much deeper depressed than ever, with nightmares I hadn't been having before.
Sorry I rambled; this is the only place I can talk - ha, "talk" - write about it, without getting bullsh*t back.
I wish I had a whole bottle extra of the klonopin, even if it wouldn't kill me; I just wish I could sleep forever.....
I also wish so-called "normal" people understood what this is all like.....
instead, you get punished for having a bad reaction to a terrible situation.
And isolation makes it a million times WORSE.

Fuck, I know how that feels, being unable to express your pain because THAT kind of pain is taboo and should be dealt with the carefulness of a sledgehammer.

Mama bear is always available for every cub needing some kind, reassuring words. I understand it's not actual "talk" but it's the most she can give, honey. Be safe my dear, I hope one day things improve. Mama bear is one message away.

 

[NR12345]

I have a psychiatrist but I have nothing to say to him. What can I say? I feel it's pointless to talk to anyone. It just ends up in a sticky situation. Luckily I am prescribed medication that has a couple of uses. I am stockpiling some meds to use when the time is right. I'm glad I found this site to be with people in the same boat. I have tried everything and all different types of meds. Nothing has worked. My psych even put me on a ketamine program. It feels great at the time, but it doesn't last.

 

[soaringskies]

ive been to therapy for a bit. imon zoloft right now for anxiety

 

[insectontrial]

I have never been known to mental health services. The autism specialist team I used to see in childhood dropped me when I was 17, and never passed me onto adult services. I've also never taken medication.

If I were to try anything, I would want ECT - I've heard it works for autistic people who SH or go into long shutdowns, both of which are issues I deal with. I'd also be curious to see if it changed my brain in any way to be less autistic overall.

 

[gardenoflonely]

Medication, being hospitalized, and two different therapists and none have helped. It's possibly my own fault for downplaying my symptoms originally but now I can no longer afford to seek treatment again even if I wanted to.

 

[oot]

I'm receiving'help' but it isn't helping. And I'd laugh about the 'help' lines if it wasn't so fucking stupid. From one old guy recommending warm milk and easy listening radio (I shit you not) to another (who was at least honest) who said maybe I really should just end it all…. And logically, if that is the spectrum of help line advice why are so many of the 'helpers' interested in finding your guilt point and hammering it rather than helping to see another day or helping to ease your decision? The hypocrisy burns me.

 

[SMG08ABUSER]

Currently in therapy for about 2 years now, along with 1.5 years of meds. It helps in the sense that I finally have someone in my life that will listen to me without judgment, but atp in my life I am pretty set on CTB in the next 2 years.

 

[RedFruit]

I start ketamine therapy tomorrow and I hope it helps somehow.