Discussion [Poll] Are you receiving therapy/ professional MH care?

[FindingVeritas]

Used to have a lot of help. Not anymore. I've run the gambit on pills and therapy and psychiatrists and ever since my prescriptions ran out & I lost access to getting them refilled I've just been spiraling.
I have an appointment to get a crisis treatment plan in place tomrrow because I fucked up trying to off myself a few days ago. I'll try whatever they offer me, getting back on my ADHD meds would be life-changing for the better-- being off of them (and my mood stabilizers) have led to me experiencing painful consequences of my unchecked mental illness. Yay me.

 

[onthefence]

Have tried everything short of ECT and am not willing to even go there. Way too much risk for memory loss.
Was seeing 3 therapists at one point. Currently have a therapist, psychiatrist, and a psych NP who are all trying much harder than me to improve things. Nothing is working. My situation is not fixable.

 

[ignorableaurochs]

Not currently on any but tried about 14 medications as well as multiple therapies over the course of 15 years and nothing has helped me. I see my psychiatrist in a few days and I do not know what to even say to him. In my mind, the decision is made to go, I just need to survive til [redacted event]. I feel like a waste of public resources.

 

[SomePersonIGuess]

In therapy but I really don't feel like it's helping. I want to stop going (it always leaves me feeling drained), but I'm yet to muster the courage to say so.
As for meds, I don't really feel like trying it, though I might at least give it a go (a friend wants me to at least try it before I attempt again).

 

[embrace_release]

There's this incredibly strong element of self-sabotage inside of me that has grown stronger than myself. My believe that I am worth nothing has developed a sense of self, I feel like. I've given myself up, let it grow on spoiled soil and now it's gotten scarily strong and it will tear apart any attempt at getting help. Like cerberus guarding my home, locking me in. It'll keep me down until I either suffocate from it or die of natural causes.

 

[grungy自殺]

I would often willow in my struggles about getting help and such because i've want to live through this life, but at the same time because of how strong my unresolved feelings are, i would think also that it would be a mistake because i would suffer more in life for the result of me not having my issues fixed before hitting a certain age and entry to this site.

But it changed when i've made a thread on here that discusses about me and therapy and how it would be an viable option to say what i'm feeling because the thoughts that i have are abnormal (which are of course self harm and suicide) and would likely put be at the center of psychiatric ward and i'm pretty sacred to say such stuff to my therapist

And now that i've realized that because i'm type of person that doesn't like my feelings to be shown because of my fear and stubness

I would not be the most viable one to even consider help if i can't be honest with my thoughts and self

Which is now that i've come to the cocouisn that ending it all would be the answer

 

[eternallyluna]

Been seeing a psychologist for almost three years now and it hasn't helped at all. Was on meds when I was 10-12 but it didn't have any effect.

I'm sorry to hear that. My experience has been similar, and a few weeks ago my therapist told me he feels as if we are at a standstill and that he doesn't know how else to help me.

It's awful and unfair because we have both obviously done what we were supposed to do but it didn't work. Sigh

 

[PropaneOctane]

4 different medications, 3 different therapists. at this point i just gave up

 

[WantingOut2]

My therapist told me yesterday she was taking a break in near 2 months, to help her mom with something (was not specific) and I asked if she was going to go back to being a psychologist and she said she didn't know.
She clearly is pretty new; the therapy hasn't been working for sh*t.
I don't know whether I will actually be able to get someone else but I hope so. Would hope with real experience.

But most people just don't give a damn.
It seems the WORSE things get, the worse people are to me. One friend took this one moronic ex-friend's side it seems and is giving the silent treatment.
I can't stand my life. I have absolutely nothing to live for. Scared of dying when aware of it; would love to be able to go to sleep and not have to wake up to this mental hell AGAIN.

 

[human909]

i do, therapy and medication but it just shows me how much more disgusting my life is.

 

[thronesick]

got ghosted by my therapist tried it a second time in october first time i was put on meds then i stopped randomly

 

[neverself]

My therapist told me to basically suppress my emotions, I stopped going after that.

 

[cyclicism]

Desperately want therapy, but considering my main problem is persistent passive-bordering-on-active suicidal ideation/thoughts/impulses I don't even know how open I could be.

Plus it's expensive. Wayyy expensive :/

 

[grandeur.egg]

I tried to get help on a rlly bad night an all they did was basic blood and piss test, gave me a turkey sandwich & later a cinnamon roll breakfy, a melatonin (as per my request despite knowing theirs would cost me 8× the price) and finally a Lyft from the hospital to the psych ward.

This all somehow costed something over 3,000 dollars. Nah brah. I am not paying that shit and i sure as fuck am not gonna accept *another* bill on it for more "help"

To answer any questions yes im in america and no i dont have health insurance, hope this helps.

 

[6lackstar]

Tried medication first and I got terrible side effects before I could tell if it worked or not. I've tried therapy a few times, I always show up for the first one but then I chicken out of subsequent sessions.

 

[Rose Cross]

I've been hospitalized multiple times and had a few therapists because I've just wanted it all to be over. I want peace. I've tried so many medications too but nothing seems to work

 

[Jadeith]

No - Not interested in seeking treatment

Why:
1)people that i don't want to be aware of the situation might get the idea
2)verbal therapy won't work because of shitton of trust issues. Simply put - won't believe in whatever therapist say
3)deep hate for chems, especially mind altering ones (hence N2/exit hood being preferred method)
4)won't spend household resources on something so expensive and with so low probability of success

 

[bbmaas12]

the medication i get now only makes me more depressed :( but i know a lot of people that were really helped by the meds so please try it before harming yourself

 

[FishermanLarry61]

Both therapy and meds, have been on them for almost 8 months, even though the thoughts of ctb are still constant

 

[Ezpz0109]

therapy for over 3 years, recently things got worse, idt i'll be put on medication, those are in extreme cases in my country, tried all the woke things too, "talking to people" "opening up to loved ones" meditation, spirituality, self love, god, eventually lost faith in everything and now will be choosing the ultimate option:)

 

[SWATKATS]

Just started seeing a therapist this week and taking meds.

 

[butimstillsoblue]

Been on meds my whole adult life.
Finally have the best psychiatrist and psychologist I've ever had. It costs alot of money though.
Remain unconvinced that it will help, as I feel like my life has been a cruel joke, and I have no people left who care.

 

[NonEssential]

Already have been on epilepsy medication for years, I don't wish to have to take any more pills.

 

[iwishtoturnbacktime]

I don't want to seek help that will put me in the hospital or make me seem like losing it. I do wish to speak with people who can better help me get through the pain I'm in. I just want everyone to not suffer anymore, is that too much to ask in the forsaken world.

 

[femcelloser]

I tried a therapist. It was the same shrink my boyfriend was going to at the time (I know. Incredibly stupid in hindsight) and I think my BF was talking about me to his therapist like I was some evil monster. Because the resulting sessions with me were notttt good. I'll never go back to any hospital for my mental health or therapist after that. I don't need a shrink to make me hate myself lol

 

[_Maya]

i tried to see a psychiatrist a year ago, i was too scared to actually describe what i was thinking at the time and just lied and said basic stuff like how i was sad and lonely. they prescribed me zoloft which hasn't actually done anything to help me, and i stopped going after a couple months, lying and saying i was doing better.

 

[number212]

In therapy, seeing a psychiatrist, tried medication. It didn't help, nothing really does.

 

[missedmybus]

Was diagnosed with double depression (dysthymia and major depression), ADHD, ASS and GAD at a young age.

Was also "diagnosed" with being gifted (I think is the English term for high IQ). This has been a curse and a blessing, as I am very good at hiding my problems, but it also caused me to get through life career/relationship stuff so far with little to no effort.

Went through most SSRIs/SNRIs before I turned 20.

When they tried to diagnose me with bipolar disorder and started giving me anti psychotics I checked out of the whole psych scene for a bit over a decade.

Had horrible side effects from the above medications, so started self medicating with benzodiazepines, alcohol and amphetamines. Also used almost every other drug recreationally.

Got addicted to to these for 10+ years. Was clean for almost 10 years (outside of wine with dinner).

Relapsed during COVID period, mostly designer drug benzodiazepines/dissociatives and alcohol.

Have been in treatment since 2020 seeing a therapist every week and a psychiatrist every month.

Currently on Wellbutrin and sporadic Ritalin. Psychiatrists want me to take antipsychotics again, but they turn my brain to mush, so am not taking them.

Hoping to get into a psych ward in the coming months as a last serious try of getting out of the suicidal ideation that I've had the past 20 years or so.

 

[lambagoan]

I started with a new therapist 3 weeks ago. In my first session he made me promise not to harm myself and said he'd only known me for 20 minutes but would be gutted if I did.

I ended up thinking that if he could say this to me after 20 minutes then anything nice anyone says is essentially meaningless and I've been over-analysing everything ever since to the point where I feel like a burden. I also feel bad for thinking like this which has put me in a vicious circle of self loathing. I'm hoping it will help soon but rn I feel awful

 

[SewingDust]

I have been on pills since I was a teenager. Maybe 7 psychiatrists and a different diagnosis from each of them. I feel like a lab rat. This year I finally got a referral for psychotherapy, but they said I have to wait 2 years... Long live free european healthcare~