Discussion [Poll] Are you receiving therapy/ professional MH care?

[TheSeeker]

Therapy is fucking worthless and overpriced. No Doc...I don't want to watch a Netflix series on positive thinking...

 

[melonrazor]

yes. i'm really trying my best. i hope whoever finds my body will find this message and know that i actually tried my hardest to stay alive

 

[Placo]

At the moment only psychotropic drugs, including esketamine.

 

[lovebutterflies]

have tried everything and nothing seems to work,
therapy seems to actually make it worse at this point
and its sad since i really did want to get better

 

[thenamingofcats]

I was in therapy for 2 decades and now am permanently done. I've seen everything and will say that if the worst experience you've had with a therapist is that it didn't work, consider yourself lucky. Therapy provides a constant supply of vulnerable people, what could go wrong? 20 years ago therapists didn't have any prestige or authority in society but that's changed now resulting in the field being flooded with dark triad types. I've heard and personally experienced boundary violations that you wouldn't believe and there's virtually no regulation short of a therapist having sex with a client, in which case they may get a slap on the wrist. The same group that grants licenses is also responsible for reviewing complaints, it's like the police handling complains about police violence. For the few that do get their license taken away they become life coaches and can get a supply of victims that way.

The other problem is there's no good way to measure how much therapy actually works since it's highly subjective. It's easier to measure behavioral changes but does that mean you're happier or your quality of life is better? What about 10 or 20 years from now? We know that when people spend large amounts of money on things they self report being happy with the decision, it's too painful to feel otherwise. I always think of what Freud said about therapy turning hysterical misery into common unhappiness. Therapy's a business and the original concept of it won't sell too many sessions so they promise happiness and feeling better which I think is dishonest.

 

[steveholt]

I find it difficult with mental health therapists ..as the people ive only ever found helpfull arw thise that have been through some stuff.. not to some uni educated rich kid with a degree thats never been tbrough certain issues.. nuat because you read a book does not mean you have any amount of knowledge on what people are axtyally dealing with .. id rather talk on here .. i place with people of knowledge and on point info..

I trainned to be a recovery coach and have the kniwledge, i did it for me with a possible hope of continuing it as a job so in my mind..its all up there.
but i have whats left of... my mind, body and .....my past
and all are broken. beyond repair

.. but as i guess many here, we are great at giving support and help to those in need ... who we hope to help and support.. And we sbould always do

Umfortunatly we suck at taking our own advice..
My biggest addiction will always be my past .

 

[Spicy Tteokbokki]

Had my fourth therapy session today and it actually went well as we're just going through symptoms I struggle with rn to see if I can get my diagnosis changed or not, and so far it seems I am not exactly fitting my diagnosis (imo) as I seem to not really relate to a lot of things. She did say we have 2-3 more sessions to go with this, though, so it'll be a while before I can hopefully get some more clarification about wtf it is I am dealing with, which imo is ADHD and Autism,but ppl are apparently not seeing the autism part (likely because I mask so much idk), but often get told I do seem very ADHD which is ironic as that's the diagnosis I feel is maybe potentially wrong, lol. Granted, I do use a lot of things to cope and make it less severe, so maybe when I cannot use those tools it shows up more in ways I cannot see myself.

Edit: Also spoke about spending half the day watching people kill themselves, and what I saw in detail and the process, and my own thoughts related to suicide right now. She didn't seem fazed and she helped me feel a bit better about it, as I still felt quite unwell in the morning the next day after watching all of them the previous day.

Glad I finally had a good session, though, after my previous ones feeling like I only got ignored and hurt and gaslit.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

I'm doing three different psychiatric drugs, I have a general therapist and a therapist who specializes in my developmental disability, and I'm working on getting an occupational therapist. I also have a slew of specialists to help me deal with the side effects of the psych meds I'm taking. I see cardiology every now and then for LQTS, I have a dietician for the elevated blood sugar, etc.

It's a lot of fuckin work.

 

[hhtroc]

Therapy for 12 years now, several meds, nothing helped rly, ssri do help a bit but make me accept a standard of living i dont rationally want. I have a feeling that my last ssri must be wrong packaging and that's why i have become so much worse but it feels like being awake, I am lowkey scared of getting better and staying alive abd putting up with all the pain. I feel like if i had no meds i would have died 11 years ago and as if i have overstayed my welcome when the world has made it clear i should not be here anymore.

 

[SilentRoom]

I am receiving medication and therapy

 

[BlissfulVoid]

I've tried a lot of medication and various forms of therapy, but none have been effective.
The wish to go out on my own terms has existed inside me since childhood, and the lack of care for the world and its trappings only grew over the years. There is the odd thing every now and then that causes temporary pause to these feelings, but alas, temporary things do not last.

 

[allmylife]

Both, but no effect whatsoever. I continue trying, but feel like I have problems connecting with therapists. Tried so many, but never gets to the real talk and always leave with the feeling of emptiness.

 

[uta]

I've been in therapy a while. Therapist acknowledges there's nothing in particular to be done for me but I go anyhow. I'm on meds (useless), Spravato, and possibly ECT soon. Not sure if the latter two are/will be very helpful, but getting high twice a month is nice either way. My medication provider has acknowledged the permanent nature of my suicidal desire and would likely be in favor of my option to choose were such a thing not illegal and taboo.

 

[Silently Dying]

I'm in the US but live in a state that is much like a third world country. There are few therapists, doctors, dentists or any other kind of healthcare. It's a pathetic place to live or die.

 

[northevelyn]

Receiving both but not seeing much luck.

 

[steveholt]

I see my shrink once a week... and also get therapy from my piano teacher we meet for a brew and stuff and also chat during my lesson see my docs once a week and meet my friend for coffee last the extent of my miserable shitty boring life .. the only joy i get is my paino lesson ...

 

[bubblecat]

No. Ever since covid and moving out of a major metro area, it's been difficult to access services with the insurance I have and with the state of my country I probably won't even have the insurance much longer.

Though my experience with mental health care in the past hasn't been fruitful, I'd be willing to give a try again because I haven't tried everything and after much reflection think there were issues with my approach to it that I wasn't aware of.

 

[snwcolt]

I go to therapy to make my mom happy. It's such a waste of time. I can predict every fucking thing he says. You know you're not really getting objective advice because there is nothing they will respond to with "Yeah you should kill yourself" it's a silly ass thing that I guess more normal type people benefit from because they're not dissecting every fucked up thought that crosses their brain on a regular basis like I am. Our thoughts just aren't all that complicated. It's all about what you want to have and who you want to fuck and/or kill. Imho

 

[quietbird]

I have been in therapy and on every medication (and endless med combos) for about 20 years. Even typing that seems surreal. How could any ctb thoughts be considered rash at this point. I've tried it all, I've given it time.

 

[LastRaven013]

Have been in psychotherapy and on medication for almost half a decade, and I also had regular psychologist appointments. While the knowledge gained about my issue was great, unfortunately nothing worked for me or proved useful. It sucks that the entire process is absolutely terrible. Even the medication part isn't simple, because it usually takes a long time to see if certain medicine even does anything at all. Some work negatively too, either physically or mentally. I've heard many people going through a dozen of different medications, and still none of them proved helpful at all. Not even mentioning the amount of money that you have to sink into this.

People are different, some things may work for one person, but not on another. Some mental problems can be resolved, learned to live with, but some can't. Sometimes trauma is too great to overcome. I recommend at least trying therapy and medication, because it's worth a shot if you can afford it. But if it proves fruitless, then fuck it all I guess, I don't know. I understand wanting to CTB, I plan on doing it myself.

 

[heartfalls]

I've been I therapy since I was 15 for suicide ideation and panic disorder, started medication when I was 17 because I couldn't leave the apartment without having a panic attack. I had periods that I got way better, just a slight melancholy but nothing major like before, but since finishing college (psychology major lol the irony) I've got worse again.
I'm also with a new psychologist, and psychiatrist. I can't see myself living without medication tbh if I'm still wanting to die with the pills, imagine without them. But yeah, therapy and medication help a lot.

 

[Daniloz89]

No, I'm just waiting to have the courage to do it and be at peace.

 

[_soulless_]

Medication made me permanently worse

 

[sadfurry22]

Therapy is a joke. Run away, they just feed you to ice positivity. My normie friends already got infected with psychotherapy toxic positivity bullshit to the point where I'm sick of hanging out with him.

 

[sis(s)yphus]

I've been medicated and in group and individual therapy since I was 14, and I'm 26 now. Depression started when I was around 9 or 10. I've literally tried everything: multiple inpatient and outpatient stays, EMDR, CBT, IFS, DBT, and multiple rounds of TMS. The only thing I haven't done is actual electric shock therapy. I know someone irl who did though whose somehow even more traumatized than I am, and she's worse after, so I don't want to try that. I've tried at least 12 different medications, and I was on 5 (2 antidepressants, anti-anxiety, a mood stabilizer, and a stimulant) different ones until I was forced to quit all 5 cold turkey because I lost my insurance. It's incredibly dangerous to quit psychiatric meds cold turkey, which is probably why I'm back on SaSu. But, one of my medications was $400 without insurance- and if my illness makes me unable to work- then it's a catch-22. I was denied from my state's insurance and the general federal marketplace, which I know I could appeal, but it pisses me the fuck off that everything, everything I have been told to do to help myself for years isn't working.

Not recommending this, but the only time I have truly felt okay was on mushrooms. It's almost like I could feel it cutting through the years of piled-on desperation. I heard the words "you have a right to be alive" so clearly in my head (almost like someone else was saying it to me) for the first time in my life. I was actually able to function for a bit after that. That was a couple of years ago though, and didn't last. I'm back to feeling like I don't have the right to be alive.

 

[akwa]

Abusive therapy is the entire reason I'm trying to CTB

 

[lucyanne]

In the last 8 years I have had 6 years worth of therapy for multiple different traumas in multiple methods.

Unfortunately NHS won't touch me neither will most private services due to a tier 4 mh diagnosis.

Private is just to expensive for me right now.

 

[leyl]

Been in therapy for a year and a month, medicated for 11 months. It took until the end of 2024 and i feel stable now…but there's no guarantee. I'm still suicidal i just don't feel the overbearing and obsessive urge to do it anymore/rarely.

 

[Neutron-Witch]

I'm receiving neither medication nor therapy, and I have no intention to start. Partly I'm terrified of opening up to a stranger in person, partly I'm worried about how medication will affect my mind, but mostly I'm not interested in getting better. I sort of wish things were worse for me than they are now, so I'd have the requisite motivation to CTB instead of just wishing for it.

 

[polarcrow_]

I've been in some form or other of therapy since i was like 6 years old? In and out of it with useless psychs and therapists and awful experiences with EMDR and all that jazz. Tried to CTB when I was 17, failed obviously, was supposed to get a seven day follow up after leaving hospital that never actually happened, given a super special 24/7 crisis line number that I called once at 2AM and was told to call back later cause they weren't open yet. What a shit show.

Thankfully I live in a country where GP's can prescribe a limited amount of psych meds (usually just antidepressants and anti anxiety) so i'm on Venlafaxine currently, not that it's helping much at all, but I've only been on it for a week so maybe it'll get better.