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Are you receiving therapy/professional mental health care & if not, why not?

  • Yes - Therapy only

    Votes: 152 9.9%
  • Yes - Medication only

    Votes: 188 12.2%
  • Yes - Therapy and medication

    Votes: 495 32.1%
  • No - Not interested in seeking treatment

    Votes: 192 12.4%
  • No - Interested but don’t know where to start

    Votes: 79 5.1%
  • No - Scared of being hospitalized or that it won’t work

    Votes: 159 10.3%
  • No - tried therapy but it didn’t help

    Votes: 305 19.8%
  • No - tried medication but it didn't help

    Votes: 172 11.1%
  • No - Can’t afford therapy but use medication

    Votes: 43 2.8%
  • No - Can’t afford any treatment

    Votes: 133 8.6%

  • Total voters
    1,543
dumbnhappy

dumbnhappy

just say it ditto
May 22, 2024
43
I'm afraid that my family would take advantage of any diagnosis I might get to entrap me or accuse me of being unstable. So I will never ever seek any kind of help
 
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hereornot

hereornot

Freedom
May 16, 2024
182
I answered no, but. But don't be afraid of being hospitalized. It's fear of having something like my mother.

I made an appointment with a doctor for next week, I don't even know if I'll be alive by then. I sincerely hope I have ADHD, i have several symptoms.

But after decades of nursing my mother with hard TDP and derivatives (various ClusterB disorders) it is possible and likely that this has taken a toll on my mental health.

Her own doctors said that whoever is closest will suffer some mental consequences.

If I live until the appointment, and they diagnose me with TPD or something close. I kill myself the same day. There is no cure, it only makes it worse, it makes the person bad. very bad.

I hope it's something different motivated by the stress of dealing with a patient like her. Well, it affected her and before I took care of her and lived with her, my life was completely different and constructive.
 
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sillyboy98

sillyboy98

Member
Dec 5, 2024
15
After about 10 years of going at it alone I finally bit the bullet and went to therapy. Got diagnosed with ADHD, for which I'm occasionally medicated because my ADHD brain doesn't deal well with refilling prescriptions. Just finished treatment for addiction. Next up is another attempt of 'proper' treatment for my depression, but after 5 years I don't have high hopes tbh. But hey maybe they'll surprise me and maybe this time it'll be a positive surprise!
 
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54321song

54321song

New Member
Oct 31, 2024
3
Tried therapy multiple times, I'm fucking tired of the same useless shit. I've been on antidepressants for years and atp I don't think it does anything
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,042
Fr ppl in USA wh/ cnnt affrd medcatn thre r sme webstes whch gve lrge dscounts & also accss t/ cheapr generc brnds whch mke thm mch mre affordble

 
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Mean Ja

New Member
Dec 7, 2024
3
I've never tried anything and being raised as person who's problems aren't worth discussing since someone's else problems is much worse than mine, i just got in cycle where i feel like i overthink my problems and made them up and feel like i actually need help
 
Malfunction

Malfunction

Member
Jul 27, 2024
43
Never had any proper health care. So I'm mostly undiagnosed.

I did try pharmaceuticals for near a decade, it did not go well and it screwed me up permanently. I lost my job and my home. After a long battle, I'm now pill free and use cannabis. Its not a cure by any means, but its better than what I was on.

I'd be willing to try therapy, though I would prefer a professional diagnosis so that I know what I'm treating. I won't play the throw shit at a wall to see what sticks game anymore.
 
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KommSusserTod04

New Member
Oct 7, 2024
2
I'm taking medicines but they didn't really work...
 
ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
362
I'm taking meds, really I have no other choice at this point.

I took ADHD meds for a long time, that's a real lifesaver.

I tried antidepresants and mood stabilizers over the years, never felt much impact from them. Then I had a manic episode out of nowhere this year and was diagnosed with bipolar, that changed everything. Now I'm on 5 different meds just to keep me off rock bottom, some meds are just to treat side effects of other meds. This is hell.

I've tried therapy numerous times and got pretty frustrated with the lack of genuine insight and helpful advice. Spending an hour listening to someone who didn't understand me and my complicated life spout generic advice that doesn't address my issues was a waste of time. Like I went in saying I was suicidal, and got back advice to exercise more. I got the same advice for anxiety, for ADHD management, for everything. I get that exercise is good for mental health overall, but I was exercising, and doing more of it never helped with my problems. Do athletes not suffer mental health issues? I never understood how someone with a PhD could be so naive (or lazy to tell the truth).
 
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waterbed

Member
Nov 19, 2024
15
Yes but my depression has gotten to a point I can't get out of my house to go to therapy.
 
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howunfortunateforme

Specialist
Oct 2, 2024
342
F therapy. Why are you sad? Um I was injured by psych meds? Oh that sucks they get to go back to their families and I'm disabled on couch cool. Wonder why ctb is only option. Therapy is for "normal" problem like I lost my job I have a bad relationship etc not severe physical disabilities caused by meds tbat were supposed to "help" you f therapy and f psych
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I'm taking meds, really I have no other choice at this point.

I took ADHD meds for a long time, that's a real lifesaver.

I tried antidepresants and mood stabilizers over the years, never felt much impact from them. Then I had a manic episode out of nowhere this year and was diagnosed with bipolar, that changed everything. Now I'm on 5 different meds just to keep me off rock bottom, some meds are just to treat side effects of other meds. This is hell.

I've tried therapy numerous times and got pretty frustrated with the lack of genuine insight and helpful advice. Spending an hour listening to someone who didn't understand me and my complicated life spout generic advice that doesn't address my issues was a waste of time. Like I went in saying I was suicidal, and got back advice to exercise more. I got the same advice for anxiety, for ADHD management, for everything. I get that exercise is good for mental health overall, but I was exercising, and doing more of it never helped with my problems. Do athletes not suffer mental health issues? I never understood how someone with a PhD could be so naive (or lazy to tell the truth).
Yeah Meds will f you up
 
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NotSalmon

NotSalmon

Asocial Impulse Poster
Dec 9, 2024
49
Mental health treatment is such bullshit to me and only makes everything worse. Self-bettering was the only thing that made me feel better and was far more effective and didn't make me feel like some lab rat being observed and studied but at some point I decided to give up on self-bettering so I will suffer in silence for now.
Also medication is bullshit. Literally have incurable illness in your head? We won't help you out and leave it to the drugs, let's chemically lobotomize you and fuck up your brain chemistry or just be straight up damn useless. Oh, and by the way here's some antidepressants with one of the potential side effects being more suicidal ideation! Yay!
 
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.twilight.girl.

Living off of miracles.
Aug 19, 2023
35
therapy and medication, started when I was 4. I am so sick of it.
I'm taking meds, really I have no other choice at this point.

I took ADHD meds for a long time, that's a real lifesaver.

I tried antidepresants and mood stabilizers over the years, never felt much impact from them. Then I had a manic episode out of nowhere this year and was diagnosed with bipolar, that changed everything. Now I'm on 5 different meds just to keep me off rock bottom, some meds are just to treat side effects of other meds. This is hell.

I've tried therapy numerous times and got pretty frustrated with the lack of genuine insight and helpful advice. Spending an hour listening to someone who didn't understand me and my complicated life spout generic advice that doesn't address my issues was a waste of time. Like I went in saying I was suicidal, and got back advice to exercise more. I got the same advice for anxiety, for ADHD management, for everything. I get that exercise is good for mental health overall, but I was exercising, and doing more of it never helped with my problems. Do athletes not suffer mental health issues? I never understood how someone with a PhD could be so naive (or lazy to tell the truth).
I am also being treated for Bipolar, but Bipolar 2. Treatment for it's SO hard. I feel like a different person every appointment I have.
 
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xan1495

New Member
Dec 11, 2024
2
My first therapy was 25 years ago, when I was 4 years old and my thoughts about death were already disturbing my parents. I have seen many different psychologists and psychiatrists, I know all the antidepressants and I have been hospitalized in a psychiatric ward 4 times in the last 10 years. So it's a big yes!
 
Cavalcade

Cavalcade

Member
Dec 16, 2024
57
Can't currently afford treatment without insurance- the costs for the tier of trauma specialists who would even agree to take on my case (after years of having therapists (many who purported to specialize in trauma care) and psychiatrists continually refer me out of their practice and to a 'higher level of care due to being out of my scope') are insanely prohibitive; hundreds of dollars for an hour. I've spent years bouncing around therapy, trialled a handful of medications. Had many re-traumatizing, terrible experiences, and a good handful of just insensitive, or incompetent clinicians, too.

Frankly, the best thing therapy gave me was a space to purge myself of all the pent up and repressed emotions I'd been carrying around: none of the insights or techniques were wholly unfamiliar to me, or ones that I couldn't have self taught. It was really more so just having a guilt free venue to yap at someone about my problems, and have a space to vent guilt-free: because I was paying out the nose to hold them more or less hostage in the room with me, and then we'd have a tepid discussion of things I already was acutely aware of, and I'd leave after crying hysterically for an hour. It was really cathartic, not having to balance the agonizing worry of imposition and burdening someone I actually cared about, because it was a strictly professional relationship. My loved ones do bear more of the brunt of my repression and agitation when I don't have access to that outlet, but I try my best not to burden them.

The medication on the other hand- worked wonders. It was incredible, being able to experience a sliver of what I imagine is the sort of baseline happiness most people take for granted: I wept out of despair for how cruel it felt to know that all along, there was a solution like this- that other people simply had access to this sort of contentment, and stability- and energy. It was almost euphoric, being able to function without it being an exhausting, ground down to the bone battle of sheer stubbornness and willpower.

Unfortunately, due to several permanent health issues (related to my genetic disorder), I had to go off of the medications that did work miracles for me. It's been... Depressing, to say the least, in having had fleeting access to an immensely better quality of life, and knowing I literally cannot continue to experience it without slowly compounding agony, because of how it interacts with said disorder. I wish I could go back on the medication, but it's just not feasible, even if I could afford payments without insurance/had steady access.
 
hereornot

hereornot

Freedom
May 16, 2024
182

Yeah Meds will f you up
This week I started medication for ADHD.

It helps to recover the functionality that I lost due to something that I can't go back in time and avoid.

Your phrase is what I have been thinking, which is why my SN kit will be ready to use at any time I deem appropriate.
 
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howunfortunateforme

Specialist
Oct 2, 2024
342
This week I started medication for ADHD.

It helps to recover the functionality that I lost due to something that I can't go back in time and avoid.

Your phrase is what I have been thinking, which is why my SN kit will be ready to use at any time I deem appropriate.
I need to use it now but can't ruin holidays for family so will do it after
 
currantcranberry

currantcranberry

spectre
Dec 15, 2024
5
was in therapy/on medication several years ago, went to therapy again a few months ago briefly, but i didn't feel like it was helping any.
 
pleaseletmein899

pleaseletmein899

Member
Oct 30, 2024
16
Been heavily medicated since I was 13, did therapy 1/2 times a week for 7 years.

I quit it all cold turkey. Honestly in some ways am doing a lot better. CBD without THC has helped a lot with my mood.
 
theater

theater

Member
Dec 10, 2024
61
I'm likely going to go with ECT soon next year to help with suicidality and depression. Maybe it could help BPII hypomania as well.
 
marshmallow_mochi

marshmallow_mochi

Hang me like an angel
Oct 17, 2023
11
Can't afford any treatment and my parents don't believe im depressed. I mean they don't even believe that there are depression they only say that I don't pray enough.
 
LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
419
Can't afford any treatment and my parents don't believe im depressed. I mean they don't even believe that there are depression they only say that I don't pray enough.
Wow…. Sorry you have parents like that. Some people are so ignorant
 
shadowsandink

shadowsandink

Member
Dec 22, 2024
8
I've tried therapy several times, but it always seems pointless for me. My second therapist experience didn't help my perceptions about therapies at all. The therapist asked me something like "Are you in this country illegally? If you are here illegally, I'm obligated to report you."

I was undocumented at the time (not anymore)... and her behavior was not something I was looking for from anyone.

The other 2 therapists and one psych I've seen were fine and nice, but I barely did a couple of sessions with them. I really can't see much use for it in my case.
 
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czzod

czzod

on and off
Dec 23, 2024
9
i have both therapy and meds but i feel like nothing is really helping. i was only able to get therapy last year and meds this year so it's been rough for a while
 
unsmashed

unsmashed

Chronic Lyme Sucks
Dec 26, 2024
8
I have a lot more to say about how the mental health system is designed to fail us, but I'll try to keep the scope of my response limited to just me.

I was in therapy and on meds throughout my entire adolescence and gave up on all of it in 2022. I have been through 10+ different therapists, was on 5 different meds, and was hospitalized twice. None of it helped. I'm autistic, and very few therapists know how to handle that, even fewer who actually work with adults. The ones I talked to had a very surface level understanding of it, but was still guided by CBT/DBT (which are proven to be not effective or counter-effective for autistic people). You have to jump through so many hoops to even get a chance at getting help, and the chance of it being effective is considerably low.

It's painful. I wanted to get better. On some level, I still do. But I always end up back in the same place no matter what I try or who I talk to, so why even bother anymore? The statistics for mental illness and suicide don't indicate things getting better either...
Autistic here as well, misdiagnosed Bipolar for 9 years. Ive been on a couple dozen different meds that fucked me all up. I found Lions Mane Mushroom helps my autism a lot but it doesn't cure my Lyme disease. I fired my doctor's and psychiatrists, cancelled my insurance and gathering money to seal the deal. Hopefully this helps someone else.
 
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Santana Idaho

New Member
Dec 16, 2024
3
I think that most therapists don't have experience dealing with complex trauma. I have complicated issues that, at the base level, have resulted in not having any self-worth and no compassion for myself. My life has been nothing but pain. I even had a traumatic birth. I've been to many therapists including two trauma therapists who could not help at all due to undereducation. Knowing what I know now about psychological research has taken all hope away that therapy would help at all.
 
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scottchy

scottchy

The sad wise old man
Dec 20, 2024
61
I've been on antidepressants for nearly 20 years. I attempted to come off of them thinking I didn't need them anymore but went running back.
Recently my doctor prescribed me antipsychotics which definitely helped with the psychosis but they make me excessively sleepy.

I also started therapy in the beginning of the year. I love my therapis, she's great. She specializes in men's mental health which I love so I find comfort telling her what I'm feeling and i know she wont judge me. I know she's not there to solve my problems but its great just having someone to talk to. I really enjoy it.
She has given me many tips and advice as to how to deal with my emotions and she strongly encourages human interactions
 
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swandive

swandive

Member
May 21, 2023
9
I voted that Im not in therapy, has not worked. Which is mostly true, I think I'm better than if I had no therapy, but I'm still suffering from depression and SI. I currently don't have therapy because there is a serious lack of providers in my area, especially for those who use Medicaid. I have been trying to find a good therapist for 4 years now and no luck. I need a trauma specialist not just a social worker.
 
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Mortiaris

Member
Mar 9, 2020
9
Tried therapy and medicine, but therapy cost go up twice, during salary in my country stay almost same..i gave up and i stay with medicine mafia, sometimes medicine+alkohol to cut costs.
 
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sadidiot0328

sadidiot0328

I feel like I died long ago
Jun 1, 2023
91
I see a therapist once a month. Ive been switching between meds since i was 15 and im sure that fried my brain, lol.
 
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