Discussion I am tired of OCD

[xeno112007]

I am really tired my head is blank I am trying cognitive behaviour therapy on my own for ocd but ocd is getting worse but its not the reason for my ctb but its just annoying. I can go to therapy but since its just one week away from ctb it seems waste. When I lose focus I enter into ocd spiral and its very hard to be focused. does anyone relate? thanks.

(if you are unstable pls dont just come to conclusion therapy can be done on own I am suitable with this because of my financial situation and mainly because of I am going to ctb soon. if you think it can be done alone pls consult someone stable to discuss this they may provide instruction based on your situation.thanks)

 

[jb.fletcher]

OCD is so hard to deal with, I'm sorry you're having a tough time. I had constant, 24/7 loud thoughts (vocalized) in my head all day, every day. It never stopped, except when I was asleep- but then it was hard to get to sleep because my brain just wouldn't slow down or shut up. I did try therapy, but honestly it's hard for me because I just don't open up and didn't find a person for me. I ended up researching different medications and found one that I wanted to try, not one suggested by my Dr. I think I've cycled through the majority of medications at that point. And it's worked for me, my mind is quiet and I can function better than I ever have. The adjustment to the medication was rough but it was worth it for me.
I read that you only have a week left with us and don't think it's worth looking for help, but maybe a clearer mind can help you?
I'm here to chat if you need someone, I understand how grinding OCD can be.

 

[xeno112007]

OCD is so hard to deal with, I'm sorry you're having a tough time. I had constant, 24/7 loud thoughts (vocalized) in my head all day, every day. It never stopped, except when I was asleep- but then it was hard to get to sleep because my brain just wouldn't slow down or shut up. I did try therapy, but honestly it's hard for me because I just don't open up and didn't find a person for me. I ended up researching different medications and found one that I wanted to try, not one suggested by my Dr. I think I've cycled through the majority of medications at that point. And it's worked for me, my mind is quiet and I can function better than I ever have. The adjustment to the medication was rough but it was worth it for me.
I read that you only have a week left with us and don't think it's worth looking for help, but maybe a clearer mind can help you?
I'm here to chat if you need someone, I understand how grinding OCD can be.

thanks for concern but I think there is high chance of me having a life full of suffering I always wanted to be free but I never was I am undisciplined and inconsistence I cant do something useful even half an hour a day or for long period of time continuously without giving up. This may continue and I may ruin my life not being able to do things I want because of laziness and inconsistency. Of course my life can change and who knows I may even become very disciplined and consistent but I dont think the chance of suffering is worth the pleasure since I can live without suffering by death. But thanks for caring.