Why are you suicidal ? (main reason - poll)

[Lycan]

Why are you suicidal ? Thanks for your answers

I've been suicidal since I was a child. I've been sick my whole Life. I was a transplacental Lyme case, and I've got an autoimmune disease called Pandas. I'm in so much pain, but that's nothing compared to the hell that is my mind. I have constant, Horrible, intrusive thoughts and Germ/Fecal Phobia and other symptoms caused by my severe OCD. I can't function, I can't escape. Things just keep getting worse, not better. I just want it to end.

 

[Zyntkalla]

Mine is learning disability when I was younger. And it really bothered me because I couldn't keep up. And I really wanted to, and it really frustrated me. Then when I hit about twelve or thirteen. I ended up having epilepsy. And that made it even worse. Ended up having surgery to fix the correction, and for about 10 years, and then I came back about a year and a 1/2 ago.

 

[kopebaldy]

Because I'm a waste of oxygen who is a dead weight to everyone around me lol.
If I'm not such a coward I'd have killed myself decades ago.

 

[pinataheart]

Honestly it's a little bit of almost everything… I've seen enough out of life, and trying to mask my severe depression id starting to become unsustainable

 

[TransientEternal]

Because nothing feels fulfilling. The more life goes on the more problems just stack up while I already don't care about life. Life goes on and I just feel a sense of loss that keeps rising. I am apathetic and I do not understand myself.

 

[just_a_guy]

1. Existence is a joke and makes no sense to me.
2. Depression since I was 12.
3. My father relinquished custody of me when I was 6 in order to dodge alimony payments. He didn't do the same for my brother or sister, only me (for some reason).
4. My stepfather was in and out of my life, and he was mentally and verbally abusive.
5. By the time I was an adult, I had lived in 14 different places so consistency was a myth.
6. I was mostly separated from my brother and sister as we were shipped off to live with different family members.
7. I've lost all my friends either by pushing them away due to my self-hate, depression, or social anxiety, or because they were just using me.
8. Various health issues.
9. ADHD.
10. Anxiety.
11. Trouble sleeping.
12. Constant suicidal thoughts.

Looks like I have a theme for every month. Yay me!

 

[RadiantNumber]

Cause my life sucks