Please, help me today PLEASE!

[SadGirl]

I have ADHD, generalized/social anxiety disorder, and bipolar disorder. Sometimes I can adapt to a job, but because of these conditions, I get fired quickly. And there were several jobs where I didn't adapt and was either fired or quit. My parents (now just my mom because my dad recently died). Being fired or quitting for not adapting to the job often caused me a lot of arguments, yelling, and outbursts. Just like yesterday, I broke a plate, cut my hand, then grabbed a piece of glass and cut myself in the neck. I really don't know if I can take it anymore, but there's still something stopping me from committing a crime. What a pain! I compare myself a lot to other people, who already have driver's licenses, cars, and people much younger than me. I live in a living hell. But I don't know, I want to get out of this, but it seems like I still have some fear or something. Can anyone help me?

 

[Carrot]

Sorry to hear that, it sounds awful.

However comitting a crime sounds terrible. I'm incredibly self destructive, but endong up in prison would not be a step too far. Firstly, it would make my situation irreversibly worse and it would hurt others.

Hope you don't end up doing anything like that.

You seem young, but that's an assumption. I'd try to become indepentand, as hard as it seems, it will only get more difficult the older you are.

Ultimately I'd strive to find something like creating music, art, writing, programing maybe. It's not easy. Not necessarily as a source of income, but to create something that is useful or resonates with people. Money would be great, but that can't be the main motivator, at least not for me. I'd need something more motivating than that.

I'm not sure if this makes sense any sense. I'm mostly talking about steps I would take. I know it's not easy and not everybody can succeed it this, but it's something that seems good for bipolar, having your own thing you can work on, because unlike a regular job, you can work on it every now and then, as long as it's fulfilling.

 

[Crematoryy]

I'm so alone... So alone... so alone... all I wanted was a hug. Please don't blame yourself for this.