Sort of similair. For me it is: isolation, recluse, little interest in friendships, little to no motivation to meet people, lack of apathy, live in head, blunted emotions and anhedonia.
I don't feel lonely because there is no real desire to meet people. Like living your life in 3rd person while not really participating in it all.
Did you grow up in an abusive home situation or were neglected?
Were you always like this? I think I only became schizoid since last year. Before that, I had friends and interacted with them, but I slowly made the friendships fade away by just not replying anymore. I self-isolated from ithrs
I don't think I grew up in an abusive home situation. I always had enough to eat and drink, and lived a pretty comfortable childhood. Money was never an issue. However, I think the emotional side was lacking. I think I was probably neglected emotionally. I also have adhd, asd, and other conditions as well so I'm not sure if they're a factor in me eventually being schizoid. I think at some point I stopped trying to be social and realized that I actually enjoy being alone
No, although there were signs even when I was little. Much of this could have been prevented if I had caring/supporting parents instead of drugs/alcohol abusing ones who did not care for their children. I guess my mind slowly detached to safe itself from the pain (mental and psychical). There was a time I had friends but this all faded away when I entered my teens.
There is a thing called secret schizoids where people mask their personality and behave with interested, engaged, and involved interaction yet remain emotionally withdrawn and sequestered within the safety of the internal world.
Why did you not reply anymore? Were these real friends or just people you hung around with?
Do you have anhedonia?
Were there early signs you noticed?
I remember in high school I had an IQ test for ADHD/ASD eval and I said I "preferred to be alone". The examiner wrote that I "preferred to be on my own and tended towards seclusion". I've never been a social butterfly, and I've always had issues connecting or interacting with others (due to ASD). I've always only had a few close friends and I think I was the loner stereotype.
I think they were true friends, but I never really got emotionally invested in the friendship, or "opened up" if that makes sense. I have trust issues and probably trauma/ptsd tho due to being bullied in middle school, but still. I kept them at a distance, like I keep all people. I think I'm probably a secret schizoid. I'm emotionally withdrawn and never really emotionally connect with others. I don't show my true self to others
I just didn't reply anymore bc it was tiring keeping up the friendship. Honestly having to interact with other people tires me bc I always have to put up a mask and facade. I always feel like I'm acting and playing a part. I'm not good at maintaining friendships tho, mine have fizzled away over time bc it's just hard to maintain them
Now I have anhedonia but probs bc I'm depressed haha. My mom says that she doesn't think I have any hobbies tho…
There is a theory that unkept AVPD that is not threated can eventually morph into schizoid over time. The mind will protect itself this way.
The desire for socialization turns into not caring because the need cannot be met. Slowly adopting other schizoid traits as well.
This is probably what's happening to me…
