deathviahanging
caring is boring
- Sep 28, 2023
- 33
i have bpd and it's honestly it hasn't affected my desire to ctb but it has heavily affected my relationships, most people don't really care (mostly because i don't open up about my borderline induced thoughts/feelings) but it makes my romantic relationships ten times harder to manage i can sometimes get so jealous i deprive myself of conversations with them for that reason the relationship becomes complicated and messy and i end up breaking it off because i care about them, but with certain people i end up wanting to stay no matter what, if they themselves leave i try hard and i try everything to have them back in my life. i end up doing more harm than good and it's why i avoid getting too close to anyone