ever so lonely
terry joseph williams
- Apr 17, 2022
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it is my conclusion of living here for 40 yrs that people genuinely dont care for eachother, and when they do it is exceedingly rare, i think they care about what they can gain from you, i see this world as nothing but what you can do for others, for your employer, your spouse, your friend, your colleague, as soon as your usefulness to that person dries up you and me, well you guessed it, we are utterly and truly expendable, replaceable, i feel we are often used for sex, money, an emotional lean on, a shoulder to cry on, often when we pick that person up from the depths they then discard us and move on to pastures new, i guess what i am getting at here and the long and the short of my argument is thus : we dont give a flying fuck for eachother, at least not in the sense we are supposed to, and havnt for a very long time, it is what you can do for everybody else, sometimes even at a detriment to yourself, coming to this realisation has thoroughly depressed me, soul crushed me, a real kick to the twig and giggle berries, seriously, i used to have empathy for my fellow person, i used to genuinely care about the wellbeing of others even those i didnt know, why ?, because i had compassion, because i hated to see people struggle, so i would lend a hand, lend money etc, only to be taken advantage of and exploited, kindness gets you taken advantage of, and fucked over, we learn this the hard way, no wonder we are so isolated and lonely from eachother these days, and no wonder some of us seek solace and an outlet such as suicide, we werent meant to be this lonely, even sex is overrated and isnt worth half the trouble, i mean this, i find even the act of it repulsive sometimes, i feel it goes against our base nature to be this lonely, my gp said the other day to me during an appointment that loneliness is akin to a modern epidemic, he said as a doctor he sees complaints from patients now routinely, even from younger generations, he said what is to blame for this rise in loneliness social media ?, people living alone more frequently, lack of trust, lack of community and social ties ?, even the nucleus family doesnt mean what it once did, as in previous generations, modern society feels ever more exceedingly broken, and it is like people have seen the game is rigged, and many of us have isolated ourselves, or at least that is what it feels like where i live, sorry for the rambling, sorry this was al over the place, i am in a very dark place, they say reach out, but when you do you just get ghosted or avoided, so i stay to myself, i have online friends i connect with better than any irl, also i hate pretence, putting on a smiley demeanour just because society demands it, when truly you wish to die and just be blunt about it, i hate pretence, therefore i dont pretend i am ok anymore, possibly why i have lost connections, i guess we arent alone in being alone if that makes sense, navigating this world truly is a shitshow, i want out people, i guess each of us does or we wouldnt be here, also i get there are decent people, and kind people, i have always held faith in that, just nobody i have met thus far, typical 
but i guess in closing my argument is we seriously couldnt give two fucks for eachother, and that will bring society to its knees eventually, our communities were built on teamwork, and ethic, and eachother, there is no sense of that now, what are we then ? the lonely generation ? will future generations look back on us as the previous generations that got away ?
but i guess in closing my argument is we seriously couldnt give two fucks for eachother, and that will bring society to its knees eventually, our communities were built on teamwork, and ethic, and eachother, there is no sense of that now, what are we then ? the lonely generation ? will future generations look back on us as the previous generations that got away ?
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