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Suffering is an underrated art.
- Apr 15, 2026
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I've thought about it for as long as I can remember, though it didn't become active ideation until I was nine.
I never thought I'd live to see this day. Honestly, most days I regret not acting on it back when I wasn't so afraid of whatever, if anything, comes after.
People told me that if I sought help, I'd get better, but deep down, I knew it would always stick with me. I was right. Not a day goes by where I don't passively wish I'd just gone through with it. It's always in the back of my mind—even when I'm distracted, or on the rare occasion that I laugh. I even think about it when I'm giddy.
I'm just so exhausted. But I'll stick around, for now.
I never thought I'd live to see this day. Honestly, most days I regret not acting on it back when I wasn't so afraid of whatever, if anything, comes after.
People told me that if I sought help, I'd get better, but deep down, I knew it would always stick with me. I was right. Not a day goes by where I don't passively wish I'd just gone through with it. It's always in the back of my mind—even when I'm distracted, or on the rare occasion that I laugh. I even think about it when I'm giddy.
I'm just so exhausted. But I'll stick around, for now.
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