Venting Partner holding me back and I hate it so much.

[asgoodasdead]

It feels so good to be back here. My partner found out about SS and was upset that I was on it, so for like 2 weeks I haven't been on. Yet, everyday I think about it. I love them a lot, but they truly don't understand that this site is also what keeps me from doing it. I feel welcomed and feel like my voice has a place here. I can say what I want without being judged.

I just practiced a PSH after not doing in a while. Well, I'm kinda rusty on my knot now but oh well. Yet throughout it, I tried to suppress my thoughts of my partner. I know they will find out and will be furious. Does it really matter? They are going to loose me any one of these days. How do you guys deal with your significant other?

 

[whywere]

One of the aspects of life that I have been fortunate or unfortunate to see and also be a part of was this: Always judged and always was "supposed" to fit in, whatever in the heavens that was supposed to mean.

This site is NOT EVER about CTB, it is about humans and the human experience. The human experience of helping and UNDERSTANDING each other, their ups and downs and HELPING.

At the age of 70, I can REALLY say this part: If someone is going to judge, looking down or anything ever about you, then no matter what a person does to "correct" this in their eyes to "conform", they WILL ALWAYS find something else to judge a person by.

Be YOU and YOU alone and the heck with what others think or say about you ever.

From the 1960's when I was born into poverty and was looked down at, I grasped the knowledge that no matter what, there would always be someone or something that said that I was not part of whatever, so be YOU!

Everyone here is FAMILY and we ALL draw strength from one another and folks on the outside, it is NOT about understanding ever, it is always about JUDGING, they will always be naysayers, so move on and let them stew in their own juices.

Guess what? Decades later, they will STILL be in the same place, and nothing has changed. Talk about stupidity, yep, they are.

Walter

 

[asgoodasdead]

One of the aspects of life that I have been fortunate or unfortunate to see and also be a part of was this: Always judged and always was "supposed" to fit in, whatever in the heavens that was supposed to mean.

This site is NOT EVER about CTB, it is about humans and the human experience. The human experience of helping and UNDEERSTANDING each other, their ups and downs and HELPING.

At the age of 70, I can REALLY say this part: If someone is going to judge, looking down or anything ever about you, then no matter what a person does to "correct" this in their eyes to "conform", they WILL ALWAYS find something else to judge a person by.

Be YOU and YOU ARE alone and the heck with what others think or say about you ever.

From the 1960's when I was born into poverty and was looked down at, I grasped the knowledge that no matter what, there would always be someone or something that said that I was not part of whatever, so be YOU!

Everyone here is FAMILY and we ALL draw strength from one another and folks on the outside, it si NOT about understanding ever, it is always about JUDGING, they will always be naysayers, so move on and let them stew in their own juices.

Guess what? Decades later, they will STILL be in the same place, and nothing has changed. Talk about stupidity, yep, they are.

Walter

I really, really needed to here this...so thank you from the bottom of my heart