everyone around me has a partner or is finding one and it makes me miserable.

[Kokonoe]

title. i'm quickly becoming the only person who's alone and it makes me feel so worthless and miserable.

my oldest sister already has her life partner and has barely had time for me ever since. and within the last couple weeks she finally established a lot of boundaries with me so i'm even further away from her than i was already. every time i remember it i feel extremely hurt.

my older sister recently started seeing a girl and now she doesn't really make any time for me, either. she lives an hour away but would come down to where i live and stay the weekend most weeks and i never really started getting to know my sister until the end of last year so getting to spend time with her every here and there was one of the few nice things i had. but now if she makes the trip out it's just to see this girl and/or her other friends and i don't get to see her at all, she hasn't even tried to talk to me or make any plans with me since. it's just sorta sad, even if i am happy for her. i know she was really lonely, too, and was worried about being alone long term just like i was and so i'm happy she doesn't have to worry about that anymore.

outside of my family, i don't really have many friends. but the few i do also have gotten into relationships recently, and it's still much the same. the few people i had to spend time with now don't really have much time for me because they have partners now, and i can't relate to them like i did before because of it. i'm slowly becoming more isolated and alone as everyone around me finds their people.

i feel completely worthless, undesirable, and unlovable. i've accepted i'm going to die alone but it still hurts. and in my situation it is genuinely impossible for me to ever find a partner. at my age everyone already has their social circles and partners, if you don't already have those things you're fucked forever. it's impossible to even meet new people, and believe me i have tried. i have tried everything i can and i am still alone, even in just a platonic sense i haven't even been able to meet new people to just talk to or be friends with or see every now and then or anything. i'm still so alone. and since i'm a gay tgirl it only gets even harder to find anyone on top of everything else. i feel so disgusting all the time anymore and i can't take it. i feel subhuman.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

Same, the closest i got is someone who wanted me around as kinda just a pet to kick in the ribs whenever she felt down.

 

[bhaloo]

don't fret so much. sometimes partner ship is just a compromise, an arrangement, you can enter into a relationship just out of convenience. Some people are not meant to find love and even if they find a relationship they still won't find love. It's just impossible if you are old, ugly, stupid, undesirable, no personality, no money, no hair, no good voice. You'll be as miserable in a relationship as without it.

 

[Kokonoe]

Same, the closest i got is someone who wanted me around as kinda just a pet to kick in the ribs whenever she felt down.

honestly that's kinda how my oldest sister treated me. and literally, too.

don't fret so much. sometimes partner ship is just a compromise, an arrangement, you can enter into a relationship just out of convenience. Some people are not meant to find love and even if they find a relationship they still won't find love. It's just impossible if you are old, ugly, stupid, undesirable, no personality, no money, no hair, no good voice. You'll be as miserable in a relationship as without it.

oh i know a relationship won't make me happy. it's far from enough to save me at this point. i don't think it ever would've. i know i was never meant to find love or be loved. but it still hurts to feel like the only one who can't have it.

 

[bunnygirl4]

title. i'm quickly becoming the only person who's alone and it makes me feel so worthless and miserable.

my oldest sister already has her life partner and has barely had time for me ever since. and within the last couple weeks she finally established a lot of boundaries with me so i'm even further away from her than i was already. every time i remember it i feel extremely hurt.

my older sister recently started seeing a girl and now she doesn't really make any time for me, either. she lives an hour away but would come down to where i live and stay the weekend most weeks and i never really started getting to know my sister until the end of last year so getting to spend time with her every here and there was one of the few nice things i had. but now if she makes the trip out it's just to see this girl and/or her other friends and i don't get to see her at all, she hasn't even tried to talk to me or make any plans with me since. it's just sorta sad, even if i am happy for her. i know she was really lonely, too, and was worried about being alone long term just like i was and so i'm happy she doesn't have to worry about that anymore.

outside of my family, i don't really have many friends. but the few i do also have gotten into relationships recently, and it's still much the same. the few people i had to spend time with now don't really have much time for me because they have partners now, and i can't relate to them like i did before because of it. i'm slowly becoming more isolated and alone as everyone around me finds their people.

i feel completely worthless, undesirable, and unlovable. i've accepted i'm going to die alone but it still hurts. and in my situation it is genuinely impossible for me to ever find a partner. at my age everyone already has their social circles and partners, if you don't already have those things you're fucked forever. it's impossible to even meet new people, and believe me i have tried. i have tried everything i can and i am still alone, even in just a platonic sense i haven't even been able to meet new people to just talk to or be friends with or see every now and then or anything. i'm still so alone. and since i'm a gay tgirl it only gets even harder to find anyone on top of everything else. i feel so disgusting all the time anymore and i can't take it. i feel subhuman.

i relate to this so much. i am planning on dying alone, and it's been hard accepting this fact. i'm not the kind of girl people pursue, i'm not going to find someone that can tolerate me. it is comforting to see someone else who understands. i'm sorry you're going through this. :(

 

[bluupup]

title. i'm quickly becoming the only person who's alone and it makes me feel so worthless and miserable.

my oldest sister already has her life partner and has barely had time for me ever since. and within the last couple weeks she finally established a lot of boundaries with me so i'm even further away from her than i was already. every time i remember it i feel extremely hurt.

my older sister recently started seeing a girl and now she doesn't really make any time for me, either. she lives an hour away but would come down to where i live and stay the weekend most weeks and i never really started getting to know my sister until the end of last year so getting to spend time with her every here and there was one of the few nice things i had. but now if she makes the trip out it's just to see this girl and/or her other friends and i don't get to see her at all, she hasn't even tried to talk to me or make any plans with me since. it's just sorta sad, even if i am happy for her. i know she was really lonely, too, and was worried about being alone long term just like i was and so i'm happy she doesn't have to worry about that anymore.

outside of my family, i don't really have many friends. but the few i do also have gotten into relationships recently, and it's still much the same. the few people i had to spend time with now don't really have much time for me because they have partners now, and i can't relate to them like i did before because of it. i'm slowly becoming more isolated and alone as everyone around me finds their people.

i feel completely worthless, undesirable, and unlovable. i've accepted i'm going to die alone but it still hurts. and in my situation it is genuinely impossible for me to ever find a partner. at my age everyone already has their social circles and partners, if you don't already have those things you're fucked forever. it's impossible to even meet new people, and believe me i have tried. i have tried everything i can and i am still alone, even in just a platonic sense i haven't even been able to meet new people to just talk to or be friends with or see every now and then or anything. i'm still so alone. and since i'm a gay tgirl it only gets even harder to find anyone on top of everything else. i feel so disgusting all the time anymore and i can't take it. i feel subhuman.

I felt like that a lot last year, I got with 3 people by just talking to everyone I came across, but obviously that doesn't work for everyone. I made a lot of my current friends just by being a smoker. all we do is hang out and smoke, and all 3 partners were smokers as well. and maybe online dating can be a thing for you? as well as dating apps. I know its hard, but you can get thru this. <3

 

[Kokonoe]

I felt like that a lot last year, I got with 3 people by just talking to everyone I came across, but obviously that doesn't work for everyone. I made a lot of my current friends just by being a smoker. all we do is hang out and smoke, and all 3 partners were smokers as well. and maybe online dating can be a thing for you? as well as dating apps. I know its hard, but you can get thru this. <3

i've tried talking to everyone i meet, too, but that's tough because i don't really know how to meet people, even if that sounds silly. i feel like i've tried everything i can in that regard.
how did you meet people just by smoking if you don't mind me asking? i used to smoke a lot, mainly just bc my sister did and i'd do it with her when i was around her. but i don't do it very much anymore.
dating apps are intimidating :/
i don't rly want hookups and i'm afraid of getting used for stuff like that, i've gotten used for sex enough as is..
plus just setting up a profile is hard, i have no clue how to even take good pictures of myself lol. but my older sister met the girl she's seeing thru dating apps, so it might be worth a shot. thank you.

 

[bluupup]

i've tried talking to everyone i meet, too, but that's tough because i don't really know how to meet people, even if that sounds silly. i feel like i've tried everything i can in that regard.
how did you meet people just by smoking if you don't mind me asking? i used to smoke a lot, mainly just bc my sister did and i'd do it with her when i was around her. but i don't do it very much anymore.
dating apps are intimidating :/
i don't rly want hookups and i'm afraid of getting used for stuff like that, i've gotten used for sex enough as is..
plus just setting up a profile is hard, i have no clue how to even take good pictures of myself lol. but my older sister met the girl she's seeing thru dating apps, so it might be worth a shot. thank you.

I've been held back so I'm a senior. I quite literally ask people, you smoke? or I just show them my vape and smile and ask them if they want to hit it. usually its in class or during lunch since I'm never busy eating. smoking isn't good for ya, so I'd just say carry a vape around. is your facial shape more soft and round or sharp? angles and hairstyling is everything. as well as background. if your face is sharp, don't smile in the pics with teeth, just a slight :) is good. if your face is round and soft, then smile a little higher like C: . take my advice with a grain of salt because I'm some transmasc dude who doesn't do makeup. I just only have friends who are girls or queer men, haha.