i 100% feel that. autism fcking sucks and you know how theres the spectrum n all? i fit in the worst place i feel. for me, its not serious enough to the point where im some math genius or have a super niche interest like sharks or something, but its also not low enough to the point where its undetectable and where it wouldnt hinder my day to day life. when you first meet me, i seem normal. but the more you hang out with me, the more noticeable and worse it becomes. its so exhausting living like this. i dont know how to describe it but its like you crave social groups and interaction but at the same time you dont. its exhausting and i know that theres something wrong with me. after hanging out with someone, it takes me HOURS to bounce back and i hate it. i breakdown almost, when im with someone, like my battery just drops. its horrible. i cant adapt socially and when i try, it drains the life out of me. its exactly as you said, we're put into a world that we're not adapted for. overwhelmed more easily, constantly exhausted, more emotional, no amount of pills or therapy can change this. i dont expect the world to adapt to my needs, but trying to adapt to the world has just been too exhausting and i dont even see the point. why fight and work hard for a society that doesn't give two shits about you?