NSFW gore warning.

[HermitLonerGuy]

i want to chop my dick off i fucking fucking hate it, i been thinking of cutting it off, destroying it, then calling the ambulance and they would save me and stitch me up and il be free from this disgusting curse.

i cant deal with this anymore, i dont fucking want it.

I wish i could get it surgically removed.

If i remove it myself then burn it or flush it then maybe goverment will pay for a phalloplasty.

Im thinking what to do, i know i can die of blood loss but its a risk and win win either way.

il hop myself up on pain pills while i chop it quickly.

il call medical soon after. fuck this i dont want it anymore i just hate it.

 

[SuicideDreams]

You for reals with this?

 

[dustyfurcollector]

I can't imagine how much you're struggling with this. It seems a cruel trick of genetics. I wish I could offer you any hope. I have no idea. Once, when I was really depressed and tired of being a girl I thought abt cutting off my nipples so I'd not be attractive to any other man and couldn't nurse any children. That's as close as I can get to it and that's not very close.

I'm sorry.

 

[Georg]

you should rather try to ctb properly. Do you think your life would be better after this chop?

 

[tessa__mocha]

Be safe, 1/2 my intrusive thoughts are exactly this. There are surgeries that can be successful and give you ANY result you want. Take it from a trans girl, any harm you can do to it will not help and will make your life infinitely harder, even though it fucking sucks.

 

[Wormfood]

Spend a week thinking about your decision then do what you think is proper for you. It's your body. You can do what you want with it. If you are comfortable using a straw to pee go ahead with your decision

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I'm not sure why you're wanting to chop your penis off, but realistically you would need the skin/tissue for any reconstruction down there (whether that be a vulva/vagina or anything else) and you don't deserve the agonizing pain cutting it off yourself would cause!

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

You for reals with this?

yes fuck this

I can't imagine how much you're struggling with this. It seems a cruel trick of genetics. I wish I could offer you any hope. I have no idea. Once, when I was really depressed and tired of being a girl I thought abt cutting off my nipples so I'd not be attractive to any other man and couldn't nurse any children. That's as close as I can get to it and that's not very close.

I'm sorry.

thank you love and im sorry you had to feel like that, i know what its like.

you should rather try to ctb properly. Do you think your life would be better after this chop?

yes il be free of a micropenis, i rather have nothing at all.

Be safe, 1/2 my intrusive thoughts are exactly this. There are surgeries that can be successful and give you ANY result you want. Take it from a trans girl, any harm you can do to it will not help and will make your life infinitely harder, even though it fucking sucks.

i wish i could get a surgery.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I thought that you were going to give recovery a try after reading posts of encouragement from your last thread. What went wrong?

I can't imagine how much you're struggling with this. It seems a cruel trick of genetics. I wish I could offer you any hope. I have no idea. Once, when I was really depressed and tired of being a girl I thought abt cutting off my nipples so I'd not be attractive to any other man and couldn't nurse any children. That's as close as I can get to it and that's not very close.

I'm sorry.

Is there a chance you might have gender dysphoria? Or was it because you hate being objectified by men? Both reasons are valid, tbh.

 

[leeloosnow]

i want to urge you to really think this one thru, this is something you will have to live with for the rest of your life. in fact i saw a documentary recently, ill try to find it for you, where some guys had enlargement procedures and it went horribly wrong and they lost, well, yea. they were miserable begging for something, anything. i really hope you'll look at other options, the enlargement is typically successful.

 

[VioletNight]

I would definitely recommend holding off on the self mutilation, there are real surgical options you could have if possible.

 

[liverhood]

getting it surgically removed under anesthesia would definitely be way less painful, although it might be pricey as i'm pretty sure that could be considered a cosmetic surgery. if you do decide to dyi the whole thing, remember to sterilize your equipment. also, while i don't encourage you to do anything, it would certainly be pleasant to see a recording of the whole process :) no pressure though!

 

[Vuliex]

i want to chop my dick off i fucking fucking hate it, i been thinking of cutting it off, destroying it, then calling the ambulance and they would save me and stitch me up and il be free from this disgusting curse.

i cant deal with this anymore, i dont fucking want it.

I wish i could get it surgically removed.

If i remove it myself then burn it or flush it then maybe goverment will pay for a phalloplasty.

Im thinking what to do, i know i can die of blood loss but its a risk and win win either way.

il hop myself up on pain pills while i chop it quickly.

il call medical soon after. fuck this i dont want it anymore i just hate it.

Be careful with everything. I understand struggling with your body so much. The human penis being removed will most definitely kill you. It only takes seven minutes to bleed out. I'd consider seeking medical attention if you want to get it removed. I dont know if it has to do with gender dysmorphia yet call your insurance if ya got it. Hope things get better and cope the best ya can.

 

[WeepingWillow]

Yeah I'm with the rest of the posts on this one. If you're going to do something like this you better do it in the ED bathroom. But honestly I really think you would do well to investigate getting it done properly by a surgeon. If its you're age that is preventing this for being an option try seeking support groups that can help prepare you for your transition. It's not going to happen as fast as a kitchen knife but you may yet retain function of your genitalia. I'm trans myself and my heart really does goes out to you. Keep in touch friend and remember you're never alone.

Edit: Sorry I mistook this to be a gender dysphoria thing. Even so there are medical procedures that can help "enbiggen" that tally whacker.

 

[GasMonkey]

yes il be free of a micropenis, i rather have nothing at all.

But you wouldn't be able to fap.

 

[_smile_]

Hermie, fuck society putting so much pressure on sex and penis size and appearance. You are kind and sweet and have an amazing heart. That's more important than a physical attribute. Sooo many other ways to satisfy a partner!! DO NOT CHOP YOUR DICK OFF!!!!

 

[StillBreathing]

There is so much more to life than sex. If it is causing you to miss out on relationships, don't worry. There are many ladies out there who doesn't give a shit about penis size, or how good the sex is... or even if there is any sex at all. Some girls just want to feel loved, and you can be that person. If you live in the western world I can suggest looking elsewhere if you had no luck here so far. With online dating your opportunities are endless. I am 100% sure you will find someone, it just takes a little patience. Don't give up on yourself for something you have no control over.

Send me a message if you want to talk, I'd be happy to help you get started.

 

[katara]

I can't imagine how much you're struggling with this. It seems a cruel trick of genetics. I wish I could offer you any hope. I have no idea. Once, when I was really depressed and tired of being a girl I thought abt cutting off my nipples so I'd not be attractive to any other man and couldn't nurse any children. That's as close as I can get to it and that's not very close.

I'm sorry.

Sorry to hear you dealt with this, I've heard some women who are detransitioners say things like this before. It sucks having so many gross eyes on your body and being sexualized as a kid and stuff like that. And then sometimes getting older, and people saying that's normal for girls to experience. Like wtf, why is it normalized to abuse us :/

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

I thought that you were going to give recovery a try after reading posts of encouragement from your last thread. What went wrong?

Because most of all the encouragement is bullshit, you know, i know and everyone else knows.
Theres nothing anyone can do but give those advices, they mean well .
But im sick of pretending, coping and hoping. I will never be desirable sex wise, i cant cope with this as a man and a human.
I will never be the stud that she fucks, no one will want my cock.
The operations are not the real thing, id rather have been born with a normal natural penis.
because this is not possible, death is my way out. I rather die than live an incomplete man no amount of fake phalloplasty bullshit will save me or coping bullshit tongue mouth bs, a fucking penis is a fucking penis end of story and il never have a natural normal penis.