Venting nowhere to go + nothing/no one to turn to

[batmanreal]

i don't have access to any drugs or alcohol or anything like that. i can't talk to anyone, all my friends are gone and i don't really trust people anymore because they are all liars and/or worthless. i can't sleep and i have no distractions except for self harm, but that doesn't help that much. everything makes me feel worse, doing nothing makes me feel worse; so i have no choice but to sit as my thoughts get worse and worse, hit my head or cut myself until i just can't keep my eyes open so i can try and fall asleep. every single day is like this, i'm so disoriented all the time. i don't know what to do. loneliness is so horrible, there's no way out of this. i just sit alone for hours on end, reflecting on my old friendships and how horrible people are. everyone leaves and replaces me, everyone is bad. i get more and more violent thoughts, it makes me feel sick. they're constant, and so persistent and detailed. i'll only be free from this when i die. no one really cares.

 

[itsgone2]

i don't have access to any drugs or alcohol or anything like that. i can't talk to anyone, all my friends are gone and i don't really trust people anymore because they are all liars and/or worthless. i can't sleep and i have no distractions except for self harm, but that doesn't help that much. everything makes me feel worse, doing nothing makes me feel worse; so i have no choice but to sit as my thoughts get worse and worse, hit my head or cut myself until i just can't keep my eyes open so i can try and fall asleep. every single day is like this, i'm so disoriented all the time. i don't know what to do. loneliness is so horrible, there's no way out of this. i just sit alone for hours on end, reflecting on my old friendships and how horrible people are. everyone leaves and replaces me, everyone is bad. i get more and more violent thoughts, it makes me feel sick. they're constant, and so persistent and detailed. i'll only be free from this when i die. no one really cares.

I don't sh but I feel similar. I want out. I'm alone and it's 2:04 am and I want out. So tired. So tired arm of all this.

 

[679chocolates]

i haven't felt this bad in years and it's exactly how you describe. i feel lonely but there's no fix im too old im alone nobody cares about me nor can i expect them to. i have insomnia and haven't slept properly in days my head hurts my eyes hurt my body hurts i can barely think. i don't self harm anymore but i miss it as im writing this.

 

[SpencerSees]

I'm sorry you were dealt the bad of humanity. I'm sure there are good people out there, i'm just yet to be proven right
I hope you'll find your peace one way or another, you deserve friendships and care just like we all do