Venting the person who saved my life betrayed me to the highest degree

[miziverse]

i thought my boyfriend was seriously the one. i thought i was finally going to be okay, he got me through so much of my trauma at the hands of men and i finally learned to trust again. then i visit him one day and find the worst possible thing you could find on someone's computer. yes, THAT. i just feel so disgusted, so helpless and deceived. how am i supposed to ever trust anyone ever again? i don't want anything to do with this horribly sick and twisted world and the sick and twisted people in it. i can't bring myself to build myself back up from square one. i just can't do it. why am i struggling so much for nothing? everyone says it will get better and it only ever gets worse and worse and worse

 

[FF777]

it's going to be hard to find a guy that never looks at porn some times..

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Sorry to hear. I mean, I don't know how bad it was, (from the sound of it, it was some of the worst) but sorry to hear.

it's going to be hard to find a guy that never looks at porn some times..

I was going to say the same, but then again, they're making it sound like it's some of the worst porn you could ever expect to find. Porn in general might not be a dealbreaker, but the type of porn found might be.

 

[miziverse]

it's going to be hard to find a guy that never looks at porn some times..

it was illegal stuff. not just regular porn

Sorry to hear. I mean, I don't know how bad it was, (from the sound of it, it was some of the worst) but sorry to hear.

I was going to say the same, but then again, they're making it sound like it's some of the worst porn you could ever expect to find. Porn in general might not be a dealbreaker, but the type of porn found might be.

exactly this. sick, illegal material