smirks00ts
have you...ever done something that you regret?
- Jul 12, 2026
- 98
even when I was younger I had the same belief. somehow, if I get into ANYTHING. no matter what it is. it gets worse.
I get into a new show/comic/interest? Oops! suddenly a few months later its problematic.
I meet someone and be friends/lovers? Sorry! They're now all of a sudden getting worse and depressed and more offline, or they somehow dont like me anymore either because of my dumbassery or out of nowhere.
I think of bad thoughts that I dont bother to try getting them out? whoops! they happen mere months later.
and if I leave said thing or whatever. somehow, they get better. at times at least.
I genuinely feel like if I CTB. everything bad in this world will finally end and everyone that ever knew me will breathe a little easier. its not like any of them would notice if I disappeared. I truly wish I could just do it (or ANYTHING for that matterl instead of sitting around doing nothing like the retarded fuck I am. i wish I was normal. I wish I lived alone. all I can do is wish. and i can barelt force myself to cry or vent. I want to be gone..I feel envy of everyone else who gets to CTB.
I get into a new show/comic/interest? Oops! suddenly a few months later its problematic.
I meet someone and be friends/lovers? Sorry! They're now all of a sudden getting worse and depressed and more offline, or they somehow dont like me anymore either because of my dumbassery or out of nowhere.
I think of bad thoughts that I dont bother to try getting them out? whoops! they happen mere months later.
and if I leave said thing or whatever. somehow, they get better. at times at least.
I genuinely feel like if I CTB. everything bad in this world will finally end and everyone that ever knew me will breathe a little easier. its not like any of them would notice if I disappeared. I truly wish I could just do it (or ANYTHING for that matterl instead of sitting around doing nothing like the retarded fuck I am. i wish I was normal. I wish I lived alone. all I can do is wish. and i can barelt force myself to cry or vent. I want to be gone..I feel envy of everyone else who gets to CTB.
