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deadofdespair

deadofdespair

Where's my arc?
Apr 20, 2026
48
My whole entire life, I have always been a loser. I was always the one that came last in everything. I used to play video games 10x more than my friends and they always used to beat me. I am horrible at school and focusing. The things I am "good" at don't exist. I think in life there are people who are destined to lose, and that's me. For every winner there are 10 losers. I have to lose so others can win. It's just so humiliating trying harder than others and still failing. I am physically weak and can't play sports. I lack stamina and intelligence. A pitiful existence.
 
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ilovecats1

ilovecats1

Student
Apr 15, 2026
105
im like this as well. i have spent too many hours on too many stuff to still suck at everything.
 
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WirelessConnections

WirelessConnections

Member
Aug 8, 2026
9
Yeah, I'm not very good at much either. I have average level skills in random different things but I don't think I'm notably good at anything. I'm not very good at games, even the ones I sink tons of hours into. Most of the compliments I get from the people in my life are for things like "good listener" or things that aren't measurable.
 
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miseryismybsf

miseryismybsf

Member
Aug 31, 2025
11
Don't know if its normal or not, But I feel you I too am good for nothing, like people say do hobbies and it might make you feel good. Mate I am literally just a dumb guy no matter what I do I can never do it correctly. And I relate with that gaming thing lol I stopped playing any games for that sole reason.
 
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ilovecats1

ilovecats1

Student
Apr 15, 2026
105
Yeah, I'm not very good at much either. I have average level skills in random different things but I don't think I'm notably good at anything. I'm not very good at games, even the ones I sink tons of hours into. Most of the compliments I get from the people in my life are for things like "good listener" or things that aren't measurable.
i get the good listener one a lot too lol.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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I realize this more each day, with new memories of something dumb I did. And so awkward. I see how people would eventually distance themselves.
I was good at one thing, math. And I could test well. But I've always had these moments of knowing someone else was actually understanding something and I wasn't.
why let us be born? Why stick us in a world we don't understand until it's too late?

To answer op question, no, it's not normal. The average person isn't on this site. We're different and it's unfair.
 
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Gild-Holm-’Ur

Gild-Holm-’Ur

Old man
Jun 28, 2026
73
Yeah, I don't know. I try to find my own little victories to amuse myself. If we are playing Dominion and I'm losing, I try to buy up all the moats.

And hey DoD without you reaching out, I would probably be researching into how to get SN right now. So, you've done right by me.
 
deadofdespair

deadofdespair

Where's my arc?
Apr 20, 2026
48
Yeah, I don't know. I try to find my own little victories to amuse myself. If we are playing Dominion and I'm losing, I try to buy up all the moats.

And hey DoD without you reaching out, I would probably be researching into how to get SN right now. So, you've done right by me.
Is that really true? That means a lot to me, truly. You've always been so kind to me.
Well... let's put it this way... I got fired from McDonald's
I couldn't even get a job there, despite many attempts and interviews.
 
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goodbad&ugly777

I miss her
Jul 10, 2026
17
I don't think it's exactly rare but I think a lot of people feel the same way you do. Doesn't make it any less important about how you feel. But you should remember your not alone. I know cause I feel the same every day of my life.

Luckily I think I'll be dead soon if everything goes well. Maybe try new hobbies like drawing if that has any interest to you. Also I get what you mean about video games, I play a ton of video games that I really like and I don't seem to be good at any of them no matter how hard I try or grind. I did a "gaming detox" which basically means you don't play video games for a few days and then start playing them again to renew your interest. It did nothing and now I just lay in my bed all day doing nothing, and I've kinda embraced the fact that that's going to happen every summer so, It doesn't really affect me anymore.
 

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